“Excuse me, Mr. Mayor,” said he.
“What is it now?” demanded M. Madeleine.
“Mr. Mayor, there is still something of which I must remind you.”
“What is it?”
“That I must be dismissed.”
M. Madeleine rose.
“Javert, you are a man of honor, and I esteem you.
You exaggerate your fault.
Moreover, this is an offence which concerns me.
Javert, you deserve promotion instead of degradation.
I wish you to retain your post.”
Javert gazed at M. Madeleine with his candid eyes, in whose depths his not very enlightened but pure and rigid conscience seemed visible, and said in a tranquil voice:—
“Mr. Mayor, I cannot grant you that.”
“I repeat,” replied M. Madeleine, “that the matter concerns me.”
But Javert, heeding his own thought only, continued:—
“So far as exaggeration is concerned, I am not exaggerating.
This is the way I reason: I have suspected you unjustly.
That is nothing.
It is our right to cherish suspicion, although suspicion directed above ourselves is an abuse.
But without proofs, in a fit of rage, with the object of wreaking my vengeance, I have denounced you as a convict, you, a respectable man, a mayor, a magistrate!
That is serious, very serious.
I have insulted authority in your person, I, an agent of the authorities!
If one of my subordinates had done what I have done, I should have declared him unworthy of the service, and have expelled him.
Well?
Stop, Mr. Mayor; one word more.
I have often been severe in the course of my life towards others.
That is just.
I have done well.
Now, if I were not severe towards myself, all the justice that I have done would become injustice.
Ought I to spare myself more than others?
No!
What!
I should be good for nothing but to chastise others, and not myself!
Why, I should be a blackguard!
Those who say,
‘That blackguard of a Javert!’ would be in the right.
Mr. Mayor, I do not desire that you should treat me kindly; your kindness roused sufficient bad blood in me when it was directed to others. I want none of it for myself.
The kindness which consists in upholding a woman of the town against a citizen, the police agent against the mayor, the man who is down against the man who is up in the world, is what I call false kindness.
That is the sort of kindness which disorganizes society.
Good God! it is very easy to be kind; the difficulty lies in being just.
Come! if you had been what I thought you, I should not have been kind to you, not I!
You would have seen!
Mr. Mayor, I must treat myself as I would treat any other man.
When I have subdued malefactors, when I have proceeded with vigor against rascals, I have often said to myself,
‘If you flinch, if I ever catch you in fault, you may rest at your ease!’
I have flinched, I have caught myself in a fault.
So much the worse!
Come, discharged, cashiered, expelled!
That is well.
I have arms. I will till the soil; it makes no difference to me.