Their gay bright candour moved her so much as they came near, that she was almost in tears.
'Why are they so lovely,' she cried. 'Why do I think them so lovely?'
'They are nice flowers,' he said, her emotional tones putting a constraint on him. 'You know that a daisy is a company of florets, a concourse, become individual.
Don't the botanists put it highest in the line of development? I believe they do.'
'The compositae, yes, I think so,' said Ursula, who was never very sure of anything.
Things she knew perfectly well, at one moment, seemed to become doubtful the next.
'Explain it so, then,' he said. 'The daisy is a perfect little democracy, so it's the highest of flowers, hence its charm.'
'No,' she cried, 'no—never.
It isn't democratic.'
'No,' he admitted. 'It's the golden mob of the proletariat, surrounded by a showy white fence of the idle rich.'
'How hateful—your hateful social orders!' she cried.
'Quite!
It's a daisy—we'll leave it alone.'
'Do.
Let it be a dark horse for once,' she said: 'if anything can be a dark horse to you,' she added satirically.
They stood aside, forgetful.
As if a little stunned, they both were motionless, barely conscious.
The little conflict into which they had fallen had torn their consciousness and left them like two impersonal forces, there in contact.
He became aware of the lapse.
He wanted to say something, to get on to a new more ordinary footing.
'You know,' he said, 'that I am having rooms here at the mill?
Don't you think we can have some good times?'
'Oh are you?' she said, ignoring all his implication of admitted intimacy.
He adjusted himself at once, became normally distant.
'If I find I can live sufficiently by myself,' he continued, 'I shall give up my work altogether.
It has become dead to me.
I don't believe in the humanity I pretend to be part of, I don't care a straw for the social ideals I live by, I hate the dying organic form of social mankind—so it can't be anything but trumpery, to work at education.
I shall drop it as soon as I am clear enough—tomorrow perhaps—and be by myself.'
'Have you enough to live on?' asked Ursula.
'Yes—I've about four hundred a year.
That makes it easy for me.'
There was a pause.
'And what about Hermione?' asked Ursula.
'That's over, finally—a pure failure, and never could have been anything else.'
'But you still know each other?'
'We could hardly pretend to be strangers, could we?'
There was a stubborn pause.
'But isn't that a half-measure?' asked Ursula at length.
'I don't think so,' he said. 'You'll be able to tell me if it is.'
Again there was a pause of some minutes' duration.
He was thinking.
'One must throw everything away, everything—let everything go, to get the one last thing one wants,' he said.
'What thing?' she asked in challenge.
'I don't know—freedom together,' he said.
She had wanted him to say 'love.'
There was heard a loud barking of the dogs below.
He seemed disturbed by it.
She did not notice.
Only she thought he seemed uneasy.
'As a matter of fact,' he said, in rather a small voice, 'I believe that is Hermione come now, with Gerald Crich.