"And you don't encourage me to hope?"
"What would be the good of that?"
"None whatever," I agreed.
"Quite redundant in fact - because I'm going to hope whether you tell me to or not."
Well, that was that.
I walked away from the house feeling slightly dazed but irritatingly conscious of Rose's passionately interested gaze following me.
Rose had had a good deal to say before I could escape.
That she'd never felt the same since that awful day!
That she wouldn't have stayed except for the children and being sorry for poor Mr. Symmington.
That she wasn't going to stay unless they got another maid quick - and they wouldn't be likely to do that when there had been a murder in the house!
That it was all very well for that Miss Holland to say she'd do the housework in the meantime.
Very sweet and obliging she was - oh, yes, but it was mistress of the house that she was fancying herself going to be one fine day!
Mr. Symmington, poor man, never saw anything - but one knew what a widower was, a poor helpless creature made to be the prey of a designing woman.
And that it wouldn't be for want of trying if Miss Holland didn't step into the dead mistress's shoes!
I assented mechanically to everything, yearning to get away and unable to do so because Rose was holding firmly on to my hat while she indulged in her flood of spite.
I wondered if there was any truth in what she said.
Had Elsie Holland envisaged the possibility of becoming the second Mrs. Symmington?
Or was she just a decent kindhearted girl doing her best to look after a bereaved household?
The result would quite likely be the same in either case.
And why not?
Symmington's young children needed a mother - Elsie was a decent soul - besides being quite indecently beautiful - a point which a man might appreciate - even such a stuffed fish as Symmington!
I thought all this, I know, because I was trying to put off thinking about Megan.
You may say that I had gone to ask Megan to marry me in an absurdly complacent frame of mind and that I deserved what I got - but it was not really like that.
It was because I felt so assured, so certain, that Megan belonged to me - that she was my business, that to look after her and make her happy and keep her from harm was the only natural right way of life for me, that I had expected her to feel, too - that she and I belonged to each other.
But I was not giving up.
Oh, no!
Megan was my woman and I was going to have her.
After a moment's thought, I went to Symmington's office.
Megan might pay no attention to strictures on her conduct, but I would like to get things straight.
Mr. Symmington was disengaged, I was told, and I was shown into the room.
By a pinching of the lips, and an additional stiffness of manner, I gathered that I was not exactly popular at the moment.
"Good morning," I said.
"I'm afraid this isn't a professional call, but a personal one.
I'll put it plainly.
I dare say you'll have realized that I'm in love with Megan.
I've asked her to marry me and she has refused.
But I'm not taking that as final."
I saw Symmington's expression change, and I read his mind with ludicrous ease.
Megan was a disharmonious element in his house.
He was, I felt sure, a just and kindly man, and he would never have dreamed of not providing a home for his dead wife's daughter. But her marriage to me would certainly be a relief.
The frozen halibut thawed.
He gave me a pale, cautious smile.
"Frankly, do you know, Burton, I had no idea of such a thing.
I know you've taken a lot of notice of her, but we've always regarded her as such a child."
"She's not a child," I said shortly.
"No, no, not in years."
"She can be her age any time she's allowed to be," I said, still slightly angry.
"She's not of age, I know, but she will be in a month or two.
I'll let you have all the information about myself you want.
I'm well off and have led quite a decent life.