William Faulkner Fullscreen When I was dying (1930)

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“It feels fine," he says.

"It's cold.

It feels fine."

"If it'll just help you," pa says.

"I asks your forgiveness.

I never foreseen it no more than you."

"It feels fine," Cash says.

If you could just ravel out into time.

That would be nice.

It would be nice if you could just ravel out into time.

We replace the splints, the cords, drawing them tight, the cement in thick pale green slow surges among the cords, Cash watching us quietly with that profound questioning look.

"That'll steady it," I say.

"Ay," Cash says.

"I'm obliged."

Then we all turn on the wagon and watch him.

He is coming up the road behind us, wooden-backed, wooden-faced, moving only from his hips down.

He comes tip without a word, with his pale rigid eyes in his high sullen face, and gets into the wagon.

"Here's a hill," pa says.

"I reckon you'll have to get out and walk."

Vardaman.

Darl and Jewel and Dewey Dell and I are walking tip the hill, behind the wagon.

Jewel came back.

He came up the road and got into the wagon.

He was walking.

Jewel hasn't got a horse anymore.

Jewel is my brother.

'Cash is my brother.

Cash has a broken leg.

We fixed Cash's leg so it doesn't hurt.

Cash is my brother.

Jewel is my brother too, but he hasn't got a broken leg.

Now there are five of them, tall in little tall black circles.

"Where do they stay at night, Darl?" I say.

"When we stop at night in the barn, where do they stay?"

The hill goes off into the sky.

Then the sun comes up from behind the hill and the mules and the wagon and pa walk on the sun.

You cannot watch them, walking slow on the sun.

In Jefferson it is red on the track behind the glass.

The track goes shining round and round.

Dewey Dell says so.

Tonight I am going to see where they stay while we are in the barn.

Darl.

Jewel," I say, "whose son are you?"

The breeze was setting up from the barn, so we put her under the apple tree, where the moonlight can dapple the apple tree upon the long slumbering flanks within which now and then she talks in little trickling bursts of secret and murmurous bubbling.

I took Vardaman to listen.

When we came up the cat leaped down from it and flicked away with silver claw and silver eye into the shadow.

"Your mother was a horse, but who was your father, Jewel?"

"You goddamn lying son of a bitch."

"Dont call me that," I say.

"You goddamn lying son of a bitch."