William Faulkner Fullscreen When I was dying (1930)

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When we come up he looks at us once, his eyes round and a little dazed. Then Be looks at Vernon again in that posture of rapt alertness.

"I got the hammer too," Vernon says.

"Looks like we ought to done already got that chalk-line.

It ought to floated."

"Floated clean away," Jewel says.

"We wont get it.

We ought to find the saw, though."

"I reckon so," Vernon says.

He looks at the water.

"That chalk-line, too.

What else did he have?"

"He aint talked yet," Jewel says, entering the water.

He looks back at me.

"You go back and get him roused up to talk," he says.

"Pa's there," I say.

I follow Jewel into the water, along the rope.

It feels alive in my hand, bellied faintly in a prolonged and resonant arc.

Vernon is watching me.

"You better go," he says.

"You better be there."

"Let's see what else we can get before it washes on down," I say.

We hold to the rope, the current curling and dimpling about our shoulders.

But beneath that false blandness the true force of it leans against us lazily.

I had not thought that water in July could be so cold.

It is like hands molding and prodding at the very bones.

Vernon is still looking back toward the bank.

"Reckon it'll hold us all?" he says.

We too look back, following the rigid bar of the rope as it rises from the water to the tree and Vardaman crouched a little beside it, watching us.

"Wish my mule wouldn't strike out for home." Vernon says.

"Come on," Jewel says.

"Let's get outen here."

We submerge in turn, holding to the rope, Being clutched by one another while the cold wall of the water sucks the slanting mud backward and upstream from beneath our feet and we are suspended so, groping along the cold bottom.

Even the mud there is not still.

It has a chill, scouring quality, as though the earth under us were in motion too.

We touch and fumble at one another's extended arms, letting ourselves go cautiously against the rope; or, erect in turn, watch the water suck and boil where one of the other two gropes beneath the surface.

Pa has come down to the shore, watching us.

Vernon comes up, streaming, his face sloped down into his pursed blowing mouth.

His mouth is bluish, like a circle of weathered rubber.

He has the rule.

"He’ll be glad of that," I say.

It's right new.

He bought it just last month out of the catalogue."

"If we just knowed for sho what else," Vernon says, looking over his shoulder and then turning to face where Jewel had disappeared.

"Didn't he go down fore me?" Vernon says.

"I dont know," I say.

"I think so.

Yes.

Yes, he did."

We watch the thick curling surface, streaming away from us in slow whorls.

"Give him a pull on the rope," Vernon says.