And Marie loved him; Hornblower remembered guiltily an incident of a few days ago, when Marie in his arms had whispered hotly,
"Tell me you love me," and he had answered with facile kindness,
"I love you, dear."
"Then I am happy," answered Marie.
Perhaps it was a good thing that Marie knew now that he was lying, and had made easy his retreat.
Another woman with a word might have sent him and Bush to prison and death — there were women capable of it.
And this question of his never loving anyone; surely Marie was wrong about that.
She did not know the miseries of longing he had been through on Barbara's account, how much he had desired her and how much he still desired her.
He hesitated guiltily here, wondering whether his desire would survive gratification.
That was such an uncomfortable thought that he swerved away from it in a kind of panic.
If Marie had merely revengefully desired to disturb him she certainly had achieved her object; and if on the other hand she had wanted to win him back to her she was not far from success either.
What with the torments of remorse and his sudden uneasiness about himself Hornblower would have returned to her if she had lifted a finger to him, but she did not.
At dinner that evening she appeared young and light-hearted, her eyes sparkling and her expression animated, and when the Count lifted his glass for the toast of 'a prosperous voyage home' she joined in with every appearance of enthusiasm.
Hornblower was glum beneath his forced gaiety.
Only now, with the prospect of an immediate move ahead of him, had he become aware that there were decided arguments in favour of the limbo of suspended animation in which he had spent the past months.
To-morrow he was going to leave all this certainty and safety and indifferent negativeness.
There was physical danger ahead of him; that he could face calmly and with no more than a tightening of the throat, but besides that there was the resolution of all the doubts and uncertainties which had so troubled him.
Hornblower was suddenly aware that he did not so urgently desire his uncertainties to be resolved.
At present he could still hope.
If Leighton were to declare that Hornblower had fought at Rosas contrary to the spirit of his orders; if the court martial were to decide that the Sutherland had not been fought to the last gasp — and courts martial were chancy affairs; if — if — if.
And there was Maria with her cloying sweetness awaiting him, and the misery of longing for Lady Barbara, all in contrast with the smoothness of life here with the Count's unruffled politeness and the stimulus of Marie's healthy animalism.
Hornblower had to force a smile as he lifted his glass.
CHAPTER ELEVEN
The big green Loire was shrinking to its summer level.
Hornblower had seen its floods and its ice come and go, had seen the willows at its banks almost submerged, but now it was back safely in its wide bed, with a hint of golden-brown gravel exposed on either bank.
The swift green water was clear now, instead of turbid, and under the blue sky the distant reaches were blue as well, in charming colour contrast with the springtime emerald of the valley and the gold of the banks.
The two sleek dun oxen, patient under the yoke, had dragged the travois-sledge down to the water's edge in the first early light of dawn, Brown and Hornblower walking beside to see that the precious boat balanced on it came to no harm, and Bush stumping breathlessly behind them.
The boat slid gently into the water, and under Bush's supervision the stable hands loaded her with the bags of stores which they had carried down.
The faint morning mist still lay in the valley, and wreathed over the surface of the water, awaiting the coming of the sun to drink it up.
It was the best time for departure: the mist would shield them from inquisitive persons who might be unduly curious at the sight of the expedition starting off.
Up at the house farewells had all been said — the Count as unruffled as ever, as though it were usual for him to rise at five in the morning, and Marie smiling and calm.
In the stable yard and the kitchen there had been tears; all the women had lamented Brown's going, weeping unashamed and yet laughing through their tears as he laughed and joked in the voluble French which he had acquired, and as he smacked their broad posteriors.
Hornblower wondered how many of them Brown had seduced that winter, and how many Anglo-French children would be born next autumn as a result.
"Remember your promise to return after the war," the Count had said to Hornblower.
"Marie will be as delighted to see you as I shall be."
His smile had conveyed no hint of a hidden meaning — but how much did he guess, or know?
Hornblower gulped as he remembered.
"Shove off," he rasped.
"Brown, take the sculls."
The boat scraped over the gravel, and then floated free as the current took her, dancing away from the little group of stable hands and the stolid oxen, vague already in the mist.
The rowlocks creaked and the boat swayed to Brown's pulls; Hornblower heard the noises, and felt Bush seated in the stern beside him, but for some seconds he saw nothing.
There was a mist about him far denser than the reality.
The one mist cleared with the other, as the sun came breaking through, warm on Hornblower's back.
High up the bank on the opposite side was the orchard at which Hornblower had often gazed from his window; it was marvellous now under its load of blossom.
Looking back he saw the chateau shining in the sun.
The turrets at the corners had been added, he knew, no more than fifty years ago by a Comte de Gracay with a rococo taste for the antique, but they looked genuine enough at a distance.
It was like a fairy castle in the pearly light, a dream castle; and already the months he had spent there seemed like a dream too, a dream from which he regretted awakening.
"Mr Bush," he said sharply.
"I'll trouble you to get out your rod and make an appearance of fishing.
Take a slower stroke, Brown."