William Wilkie Collins Fullscreen Two destinies (1879)

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"I dare say I am mistaken in supposing her to be a lady of the same name whom I know.

But I should like to make sure whether I am right or wrong.

Is it too late to disturb your lodger to-night?"

The woman recovered the use of her tongue.

"My lodger is up and waiting for that little fool, who doesn't know his way about London yet!"

She emphasized those words by shaking her brawny fist at her son—who instantly returned to his place of refuge behind the tail of my coat.

"Have you got the money?" inquired the terrible person, shouting at her hidden offspring over my shoulder.

"Or have you lost that as well as your own stupid little self?"

The boy showed himself again, and put the money into his mother's knotty hand.

She counted it, with eyes which satisfied themselves fiercely that each coin was of genuine silver—and then became partially pacified.

"Go along upstairs," she growled, addressing her son; "and don't keep the lady waiting any longer.

They're half starved, she and her child," the woman proceeded, turning to me.

"The food my boy has got for them in his basket will be the first food the mother has tasted today.

She's pawned everything by this time; and what she's to do unless you help her is more than I can say.

The doctor does what he can; but he told me today, if she wasn't better nourished, it was no use sending for him.

Follow the boy; and see for yourself if it's the lady you know."

I listened to the woman, still feeling persuaded that I had acted under a delusion in going to her house.

How was it possible to associate the charming object of my heart's worship with the miserable story of destitution which I had just heard?

I stopped the boy on the first landing, and told him to announce me simply as a doctor, who had been informed of Mrs. Brand's illness, and who had called to see her.

We ascended a second flight of stairs, and a third.

Arrived now at the top of the house, the boy knocked at the door that was nearest to us on the landing.

No audible voice replied.

He opened the door without ceremony, and went in.

I waited outside to hear what was said.

The door was left ajar.

If the voice of "Mrs. Brand" was (as I believed it would prove to be) the voice of a stranger, I resolved to offer her delicately such help as lay within my power, and to return forthwith to my post under "the shadow of Saint Paul's."

The first voice that spoke to the boy was the voice of a child.

"I'm so hungry, Jemmy—I'm so hungry!"

"All right, missy—I've got you something to eat."

"Be quick, Jemmy! Be quick!"

There was a momentary pause; and then I heard the boy's voice once more.

"There's a slice of bread-and-butter, missy.

You must wait for your egg till I can boil it.

Don't you eat too fast, or you'll choke yourself.

What's the matter with your mamma?

Are you asleep, ma'am?"

I could barely hear the answering voice—it was so faint; and it uttered but one word:

"No!"

The boy spoke again.

"Cheer up, missus.

There's a doctor outside waiting to see you."

This time there was no audible reply.

The boy showed himself to me at the door.

"Please to come in, sir.

I can't make anything of her."

It would have been misplaced delicacy to have hesitated any longer to enter the room.

I went in.

There, at the opposite end of a miserably furnished bed-chamber, lying back feebly in a tattered old arm-chair, was one more among the thousands of forlorn creatures, starving that night in the great city.

A white handkerchief was laid over her face as if to screen it from the flame of the fire hard by.

She lifted the handkerchief, startled by the sound of my footsteps as I entered the room.