The furniture still remained in the cottage.
I sat down in our customary corner, by Mary's empty chair, and looked again at the pretty green flag, and burst out crying.
A light touch roused me.
My father had so far yielded as to leave to my mother the responsibility of bringing me back to the traveling carriage.
"We shall not find Mary here, George," she said, gently.
"And we may hear of her in London.
Come with me."
I rose and silently gave her my hand.
Something low down on the clean white door-post caught my eye as we passed it.
I stooped, and discovered some writing in pencil.
I looked closer—it was writing in Mary's hand!
The unformed childish characters traced these last words of farewell:
"Good-by, dear.
Don't forget Mary."
I knelt down and kissed the writing.
It comforted me—it was like a farewell touch from Mary's hand.
I followed my mother quietly to the carriage.
Late that night we were in London.
My good mother did all that the most compassionate kindness could do (in her position) to comfort me.
She privately wrote to the solicitors employed by her family, inclosing a description of Dermody and his mother and daughter and directing inquiries to be made at the various coach-offices in London.
She also referred the lawyers to two of Dermody's relatives, who lived in the city, and who might know something of his movements after he left my father's service.
When she had done this, she had done all that lay in her power.
We neither of us possessed money enough to advertise in the newspapers.
A week afterward we sailed for the United States.
Twice in that interval I communicated with the lawyers; and twice I was informed that the inquiries had led to nothing.
With this the first epoch in my love story comes to an end.
For ten long years afterward I never again met with my little Mary; I never even heard whether she had lived to grow to womanhood or not.
I still kept the green flag, with the dove worked on it.
For the rest, the waters of oblivion had closed over the old golden days at Greenwater Broad.
CHAPTER V. MY STORY.
WHEN YOU last saw me, I was a boy of thirteen.
You now see me a man of twenty-three.
The story of my life, in the interval between these two ages, is a story that can be soon told.
Speaking of my father first, I have to record that the end of his career did indeed come as Dame Dermody had foretold it.
Before we had been a year in America, the total collapse of his land speculation was followed by his death.
The catastrophe was complete.
But for my mother's little income (settled on her at her marriage) we should both have been left helpless at the mercy of the world.
We made some kind friends among the hearty and hospitable people of the United States, whom we were unaffectedly sorry to leave.
But there were reasons which inclined us to return to our own country after my father's death; and we did return accordingly.
Besides her brother-in-law (already mentioned in the earlier pages of my narrative), my mother had another relative—a cousin named Germaine—on whose assistance she mainly relied for starting me, when the time came, in a professional career.
I remember it as a family rumor, that Mr. Germaine had been an unsuccessful suitor for my mother's hand in the days when they were young people together.
He was still a bachelor at the later period when his eldest brother's death without issue placed him in possession of a handsome fortune.
The accession of wealth made no difference in his habits of life: he was a lonely old man, estranged from his other relatives, when my mother and I returned to England.
If I could only succeed in pleasing Mr. Germaine, I might consider my prospects (in some degree, at least) as being prospects assured.
This was one consideration that influenced us in leaving America.
There was another—in which I was especially interested—that drew me back to the lonely shores of Greenwater Broad.
My only hope of recovering a trace of Mary was to make inquiries among the cottagers in the neighborhood of my old home.
The good bailiff had been heartily liked and respected in his little sphere.
It seemed at least possible that some among his many friends in Suffolk might have discovered traces of him, in the year that had passed since I had left England.
In my dreams of Mary—and I dreamed of her constantly—the lake and its woody banks formed a frequent background in the visionary picture of my lost companion.