It was her own fault, why did she booze?
Goujet no doubt thought she had been drinking, and that she was up to some nasty pranks.
He looked at her while the snow scattered daisies over his beautiful yellow beard.
Then as she lowered her head and stepped back he detained her.
“Come,” said he.
And he walked on first.
She followed him.
They both crossed the silent district, gliding noiselessly along the walls.
Poor Madame Goujet had died of rheumatism in the month of October.
Goujet still resided in the little house in the Rue Neuve, living gloomily alone.
On this occasion he was belated because he had sat up nursing a wounded comrade.
When he had opened the door and lighted a lamp, he turned towards Gervaise, who had remained humbly on the threshold. Then, in a low voice, as if he were afraid his mother could still hear him, he exclaimed,
“Come in.”
The first room, Madame Goujet’s, was piously preserved in the state she had left it.
On a chair near the window lay the tambour by the side of the large arm-chair, which seemed to be waiting for the old lace-worker.
The bed was made, and she could have stretched herself beneath the sheets if she had left the cemetery to come and spend the evening with her child.
There was something solemn, a perfume of honesty and goodness about the room.
“Come in,” repeated the blacksmith in a louder tone.
She went in, half frightened, like a disreputable woman gliding into a respectable place.
He was quite pale, and trembled at the thought of ushering a woman like this into his dead mother’s home.
They crossed the room on tip-toe, as if they were ashamed to be heard.
Then when he had pushed Gervaise into his own room he closed the door.
Here he was at home.
It was the narrow closet she was acquainted with; a schoolgirl’s room, with the little iron bedstead hung with white curtains.
On the walls the engravings cut out of illustrated newspapers had gathered and spread, and they now reached to the ceiling.
The room looked so pure that Gervaise did not dare to advance, but retreated as far as she could from the lamp.
Then without a word, in a transport as it were, he tried to seize hold of her and press her in his arms.
But she felt faint and murmured: “Oh! Mon Dieu! Oh, mon Dieu!”
The fire in the stove, having been covered with coke-dust, was still alight, and the remains of a stew which Goujet had put to warm, thinking he should return to dinner, was smoking in front of the cinders.
Gervaise, who felt her numbness leave her in the warmth of this room, would have gone down on all fours to eat out of the saucepan.
Her hunger was stronger than her will; her stomach seemed rent in two; and she stooped down with a sigh.
Goujet had realized the truth.
He placed the stew on the table, cut some bread, and poured her out a glass of wine.
“Thank you!
Thank you!” said she.
“Oh, how kind you are!
Thank you!”
She stammered; she could hardly articulate.
When she caught hold of her fork she began to tremble so acutely that she let it fall again.
The hunger that possessed her made her wag her head as if senile.
She carried the food to her mouth with her fingers.
As she stuffed the first potato into her mouth, she burst out sobbing.
Big tears coursed down her cheeks and fell onto her bread.
She still ate, gluttonously devouring this bread thus moistened by her tears, and breathing very hard all the while.
Goujet compelled her to drink to prevent her from stifling, and her glass chinked, as it were, against her teeth.
“Will you have some more bread?” he asked in an undertone.
She cried, she said “no,” she said “yes,” she didn’t know.
Ah! how nice and yet how painful it is to eat when one is starving.
And standing in front of her, Goujet looked at her all the while; under the bright light cast by the lamp-shade he could see her well.
How aged and altered she seemed!