Compared to Cowperwood, Forbes Gurney was a stripling beggar, and yet Gurney had what Cowperwood did not have—a sad, poetic lure. He awakened her sympathies.
He was such a lonely boy.
Cowperwood was so strong, brilliant, magnetic.
Perhaps it was with some idea of clearing up her moral status generally that she finally said:
“Well, I didn’t tell you the exact truth about it, either.
I was a little ashamed to.”
At the close of her confession, which involved only Knowles, and was incomplete at that, Cowperwood burned with a kind of angry resentment.
Why trifle with a lying prostitute?
That she was an inconsequential free lover at twenty-one was quite plain.
And yet there was something so strangely large about the girl, so magnetic, and she was so beautiful after her kind, that he could not think of giving her up.
She reminded him of himself.
“Well, Stephanie,” he said, trampling under foot an impulse to insult or rebuke and dismiss her, “you are strange.
Why didn’t you tell me this before?
I have asked and asked.
Do you really mean to say that you care for me at all?”
“How can you ask that?” she demanded, reproachfully, feeling that she had been rather foolish in confessing.
Perhaps she would lose him now, and she did not want to do that.
Because his eyes blazed with a jealous hardness she burst into tears.
“Oh, I wish I had never told you!
There is nothing to tell, anyhow.
I never wanted to.”
Cowperwood was nonplussed.
He knew human nature pretty well, and woman nature; his common sense told him that this girl was not to be trusted, and yet he was drawn to her.
Perhaps she was not lying, and these tears were real.
“And you positively assure me that this was all—that there wasn’t any one else before, and no one since?”
Stephanie dried her eyes.
They were in his private rooms in Randolph Street, the bachelor rooms he had fitted for himself as a changing place for various affairs.
“I don’t believe you care for me at all,” she observed, dolefully, reproachfully.
“I don’t believe you understand me. I don’t think you believe me.
When I tell you how things are you don’t understand.
I don’t lie.
I can’t.
If you are so doubting now, perhaps you had better not see me any more.
I want to be frank with you, but if you won’t let me—”
She paused heavily, gloomily, very sorrowfully, and Cowperwood surveyed her with a kind of yearning. What an unreasoning pull she had for him!
He did not believe her, and yet he could not let her go.
“Oh, I don’t know what to think,” he commented, morosely.
“I certainly don’t want to quarrel with you, Stephanie, for telling me the truth.
Please don’t deceive me.
You are a remarkable girl.
I can do so much for you if you will let me.
You ought to see that.”
“But I’m not deceiving you,” she repeated, wearily.
“I should think you could see.”
“I believe you,” he went on, trying to deceive himself against his better judgment.
“But you lead such a free, unconventional life.”
“Ah,” thought Stephanie, “perhaps I talk too much.”
“I am very fond of you.
You appeal to me so much.
I love you, really.