But he admired something in her, and he deposited her at the Excelsior with a series of compliments that left her shimmering.
Rosemary insisted on treating Dick to lunch next day.
They went to a little trattoria kept by an Italian who had worked in America, and ate ham and eggs and waffles.
Afterward, they went to the hotel.
Dick’s discovery that he was not in love with her, nor she with him, had added to rather than diminished his passion for her.
Now that he knew he would not enter further into her life, she became the strange woman for him.
He supposed many men meant no more than that when they said they were in love—not a wild submergence of soul, a dipping of all colors into an obscuring dye, such as his love for Nicole had been.
Certain thoughts about Nicole, that she should die, sink into mental darkness, love another man, made him physically sick.
Nicotera was in Rosemary’s sitting-room, chattering about a professional matter.
When Rosemary gave him his cue to go, he left with humorous protests and a rather insolent wink at Dick.
As usual the phone clamored and Rosemary was engaged at it for ten minutes, to Dick’s increasing impatience.
“Let’s go up to my room,” he suggested, and she agreed.
She lay across his knees on a big sofa; he ran his fingers through the lovely forelocks of her hair.
“Let me be curious about you again?” he asked.
“What do you want to know?”
“About men.
I’m curious, not to say prurient.”
“You mean how long after I met you?”
“Or before.”
“Oh, no.” She was shocked.
“There was nothing before.
You were the first man I cared about.
You’re still the only man I really care about.”
She considered.
“It was about a year, I think.”
“Who was it?”
“Oh, a man.”
He closed in on her evasion.
“I’ll bet I can tell you about it: the first affair was unsatisfactory and after that there was a long gap.
The second was better, but you hadn’t been in love with the man in the first place.
The third was all right—”
Torturing himself he ran on.
“Then you had one real affair that fell of its own weight, and by that time you were getting afraid that you wouldn’t have anything to give to the man you finally loved.”
He felt increasingly Victorian.
“Afterwards there were half a dozen just episodic affairs, right up to the present.
Is that close?”
She laughed between amusement and tears.
“It’s about as wrong as it could be,” she said, to Dick’s relief.
“But some day I’m going to find somebody and love him and love him and never let him go.”
Now his phone rang and Dick recognized Nicotera’s voice, asking for Rosemary.
He put his palm over the transmitter.
“Do you want to talk to him?”
She went to the phone and jabbered in a rapid Italian Dick could not understand.
“This telephoning takes time,” he said.
“It’s after four and I have an engagement at five.
You better go play with Signor Nicotera.”
“Don’t be silly.”
“Then I think that while I’m here you ought to count him out.”
“It’s difficult.”
She was suddenly crying.