But for Dick that portion of the road was short; the turning came before they reached the hotel.
“There’s nothing to do about it,” he said, with a feeling of panic.
“I’m in love with you but it doesn’t change what I said last night.”
“That doesn’t matter now.
I just wanted to make you love me—if you love me everything’s all right.”
“Unfortunately I do.
But Nicole mustn’t know—she mustn’t suspect even faintly.
Nicole and I have got to go on together.
In a way that’s more important than just wanting to go on.”
“Kiss me once more.”
He kissed her, but momentarily he had left her.
“Nicole mustn’t suffer—she loves me and I love her—you understand that.”
She did understand—it was the sort of thing she understood well, not hurting people.
She knew the Divers loved each other because it had been her primary assumption.
She had thought however that it was a rather cooled relation, and actually rather like the love of herself and her mother.
When people have so much for outsiders didn’t it indicate a lack of inner intensity?
“And I mean love,” he said, guessing her thoughts.
“Active love— it’s more complicated than I can tell you.
It was responsible for that crazy duel.”
“How did you know about the duel?
I thought we were to keep it from you.”
“Do you think Abe can keep a secret?”
He spoke with incisive irony.
“Tell a secret over the radio, publish it in a tabloid, but never tell it to a man who drinks more than three or four a day.”
She laughed in agreement, staying close to him.
“So you understand my relations with Nicole are complicated.
She’s not very strong—she looks strong but she isn’t.
And this makes rather a mess.”
“Oh, say that later!
But kiss me now—love me now.
I’ll love you and never let Nicole see.”
“You darling.”
They reached the hotel and Rosemary walked a little behind him, to admire him, to adore him.
His step was alert as if he had just come from some great doings and was hurrying on toward others.
Organizer of private gaiety, curator of a richly incrusted happiness.
His hat was a perfect hat and he carried a heavy stick and yellow gloves.
She thought what a good time they would all have being with him to-night.
They walked upstairs—five flights.
At the first landing they stopped and kissed; she was careful on the next landing, on the third more careful still. On the next—there were two more—she stopped half way and kissed him fleetingly good-by.
At his urgency she walked down with him to the one below for a minute—and then up and up.
Finally it was good-by with their hands stretching to touch along the diagonal of the banister and then the fingers slipping apart. Dick went back downstairs to make some arrangements for the evening—Rosemary ran to her room and wrote a letter to her mother; she was conscience-stricken because she did not miss her mother at all.
XVIII
Although the Divers were honestly apathetic to organized fashion, they were nevertheless too acute to abandon its contemporaneous rhythm and beat—Dick’s parties were all concerned with excitement, and a chance breath of fresh night air was the more precious for being experienced in the intervals of the excitement.
The party that night moved with the speed of a slapstick comedy.
They were twelve, they were sixteen, they were quartets in separate motors bound on a quick Odyssey over Paris.
Everything had been foreseen.
People joined them as if by magic, accompanied them as specialists, almost guides, through a phase of the evening, dropped out and were succeeded by other people, so that it appeared as if the freshness of each one had been husbanded for them all day.
Rosemary appreciated how different it was from any party in Hollywood, no matter how splendid in scale.
There was, among many diversions, the car of the Shah of Persia.
Where Dick had commandeered this vehicle, what bribery was employed, these were facts of irrelevance.