But he had daughters; and yet he was as good to my sister as to me.
And his death was so sudden!
I always intended to thank him—to let him know that I had not taken all his care of me as a matter of course, as any boy takes his father's care.
But I waited for an opportunity and now he is dead—dropped without a moment's warning. He will never know what I felt. [He takes out his handkerchief and cries unaffectedly].
RAMSDEN.
How do we know that, Octavius?
He may know it: we cannot tell.
Come!
Don't grieve. [Octavius masters himself and puts up his handkerchief].
That's right.
Now let me tell you something to console you.
The last time I saw him—it was in this very room—he said to me:
"Tavy is a generous lad and the soul of honor; and when I see how little consideration other men get from their sons, I realize how much better than a son he's been to me."
There!
Doesn't that do you good?
OCTAVIUS.
Mr Ramsden: he used to say to me that he had met only one man in the world who was the soul of honor, and that was Roebuck Ramsden.
RAMSDEN.
Oh, that was his partiality: we were very old friends, you know.
But there was something else he used to say about you.
I wonder whether I ought to tell you or not!
OCTAVIUS.
You know best.
RAMSDEN.
It was something about his daughter.
OCTAVIUS. [eagerly] About Ann!
Oh, do tell me that, Mr Ramsden.
RAMSDEN.
Well, he said he was glad, after all, you were not his son, because he thought that someday Annie and you—[Octavius blushes vividly].
Well, perhaps I shouldn't have told you.
But he was in earnest.
OCTAVIUS.
Oh, if only I thought I had a chance!
You know, Mr Ramsden, I don't care about money or about what people call position; and I can't bring myself to take an interest in the business of struggling for them.
Well, Ann has a most exquisite nature; but she is so accustomed to be in the thick of that sort of thing that she thinks a man's character incomplete if he is not ambitious.
She knows that if she married me she would have to reason herself out of being ashamed of me for not being a big success of some kind.
RAMSDEN. [Getting up and planting himself with his back to the fireplace] Nonsense, my boy, nonsense!
You're too modest.
What does she know about the real value of men at her age? [More seriously] Besides, she's a wonderfully dutiful girl.
Her father's wish would be sacred to her.
Do you know that since she grew up to years of discretion, I don't believe she has ever once given her own wish as a reason for doing anything or not doing it.
It's always "Father wishes me to," or "Mother wouldn't like it."
It's really almost a fault in her.
I have often told her she must learn to think for herself.
OCTAVIUS. [shaking his head] I couldn't ask her to marry me because her father wished it, Mr Ramsden.
RAMSDEN.
Well, perhaps not.
No: of course not.
I see that. No: you certainly couldn't.
But when you win her on your own merits, it will be a great happiness to her to fulfil her father's desire as well as her own.