She shook her head.
"No, I said I'd come, and I'll come."
"What's the good, if you're sick with love for him?"
"Yes, that's the word.
I'm sick with love.
I know it won't last, just as well as he does, but just now…"
She paused and shut her eyes as though she were going to faint.
A strange idea came to Philip, and he spoke it as it came, without stopping to think it out.
"Why don't you go away with him?"
"How can I?
You know we haven't got the money."
"I'll give you the money."
"You?"
She sat up and looked at him.
Her eyes began to shine, and the colour came into her cheeks.
"Perhaps the best thing would be to get it over, and then you'd come back to me."
Now that he had made the suggestion he was sick with anguish, and yet the torture of it gave him a strange, subtle sensation.
She stared at him with open eyes.
"Oh, how could we, on your money?
Harry wouldn't think of it."
"Oh yes, he would, if you persuaded him."
Her objections made him insist, and yet he wanted her with all his heart to refuse vehemently.
"I'll give you a fiver, and you can go away from Saturday to Monday.
You could easily do that.
On Monday he's going home till he takes up his appointment at the North London."
"Oh, Philip, do you mean that?" she cried, clasping her hands. "If you could only let us go—I would love you so much afterwards, I'd do anything for you.
I'm sure I shall get over it if you'll only do that.
Would you really give us the money?"
"Yes," he said.
She was entirely changed now.
She began to laugh.
He could see that she was insanely happy.
She got up and knelt down by Philip's side, taking his hands.
"You are a brick, Philip.
You're the best fellow I've ever known.
Won't you be angry with me afterwards?"
He shook his head, smiling, but with what agony in his heart!
"May I go and tell Harry now?
And can I say to him that you don't mind?
He won't consent unless you promise it doesn't matter.
Oh, you don't know how I love him!
And afterwards I'll do anything you like.
I'll come over to Paris with you or anywhere on Monday."
She got up and put on her hat.
"Where are you going?"
"I'm going to ask him if he'll take me."
"Already?"
"D'you want me to stay?
I'll stay if you like."
She sat down, but he gave a little laugh.