Philip, not knowing what on earth this new attitude implied, went back to his work.
He was uneasy and conscience-stricken; but he would not go to her and say he was sorry if he had caused her pain, because he was afraid she would take the opportunity to snub him.
For two or three weeks she did not speak to him, and, after Philip had got over the discomfort of being cut by her, he was somewhat relieved to be free from so difficult a friendship. He had been a little disconcerted by the air of proprietorship she assumed over him.
She was an extraordinary woman.
She came every day to the studio at eight o'clock, and was ready to start working when the model was in position; she worked steadily, talking to no one, struggling hour after hour with difficulties she could not overcome, and remained till the clock struck twelve.
Her work was hopeless.
There was not in it the smallest approach even to the mediocre achievement at which most of the young persons were able after some months to arrive.
She wore every day the same ugly brown dress, with the mud of the last wet day still caked on the hem and with the raggedness, which Philip had noticed the first time he saw her, still unmended.
But one day she came up to him, and with a scarlet face asked whether she might speak to him afterwards.
"Of course, as much as you like," smiled Philip. "I'll wait behind at twelve."
He went to her when the day's work was over.
"Will you walk a little bit with me?" she said, looking away from him with embarrassment.
"Certainly."
They walked for two or three minutes in silence.
"D'you remember what you said to me the other day?" she asked then on a sudden.
"Oh, I say, don't let's quarrel," said Philip. "It really isn't worth while."
She gave a quick, painful inspiration.
"I don't want to quarrel with you.
You're the only friend I had in Paris.
I thought you rather liked me.
I felt there was something between us.
I was drawn towards you—you know what I mean, your club-foot."
Philip reddened and instinctively tried to walk without a limp.
He did not like anyone to mention the deformity.
He knew what Fanny Price meant.
She was ugly and uncouth, and because he was deformed there was between them a certain sympathy.
He was very angry with her, but he forced himself not to speak.
"You said you only asked my advice to please me.
Don't you think my work's any good?"
"I've only seen your drawing at Amitrano's.
It's awfully hard to judge from that."
"I was wondering if you'd come and look at my other work.
I've never asked anyone else to look at it.
I should like to show it to you."
"It's awfully kind of you.
I'd like to see it very much."
"I live quite near here," she said apologetically. "It'll only take you ten minutes."
"Oh, that's all right," he said.
They were walking along the boulevard, and she turned down a side street, then led him into another, poorer still, with cheap shops on the ground floor, and at last stopped.
They climbed flight after flight of stairs.
She unlocked a door, and they went into a tiny attic with a sloping roof and a small window.
This was closed and the room had a musty smell.
Though it was very cold there was no fire and no sign that there had been one.
The bed was unmade.
A chair, a chest of drawers which served also as a wash-stand, and a cheap easel, were all the furniture.
The place would have been squalid enough in any case, but the litter, the untidiness, made the impression revolting.
On the chimney-piece, scattered over with paints and brushes, were a cup, a dirty plate, and a tea-pot.
"If you'll stand over there I'll put them on the chair so that you can see them better."
She showed him twenty small canvases, about eighteen by twelve. She placed them on the chair, one after the other, watching his face; he nodded as he looked at each one.
"You do like them, don't you?" she said anxiously, after a bit.