And she looked at him with her straight eyes of an unflinching cruelty and she said:
"I am ready to belong to you—to save your life."
He answered:
"I don't want it; I don't want it; I don't want it."
And he says that he didn't want it; that he would have hated himself; that it was unthinkable.
And all the while he had the immense temptation to do the unthinkable thing, not from the physical desire but because of a mental certitude.
He was certain that if she had once submitted to him she would remain his for ever.
He knew that.
She was thinking that her aunt had said he had desired her to love him from a distance of five thousand miles.
She said:
"I can never love you now I know the kind of man you are.
I will belong to you to save your life.
But I can never love you."
It was a fantastic display of cruelty.
She didn't in the least know what it meant—to belong to a man.
But, at that Edward pulled himself together. He spoke in his normal tones; gruff, husky, overbearing, as he would have done to a servant or to a horse.
"Go back to your room," he said. "Go back to your room and go to sleep. This is all nonsense."
They were baffled, those two women.
And then I came on the scene.
VI
MY coming on the scene certainly calmed things down—for the whole fortnight that intervened between my arrival and the girl's departure.
I don't mean to say that the endless talking did not go on at night or that Leonora did not send me out with the girl and, in the interval, give Edward a hell of a time.
Having discovered what he wanted—that the girl should go five thousand miles away and love him steadfastly as people do in sentimental novels, she was determined to smash that aspiration.
And she repeated to Edward in every possible tone that the girl did not love him; that the girl detested him for his brutality, his overbearingness, his drinking habits.
She pointed out that Edward in the girl's eyes, was already pledged three or four deep.
He was pledged to Leonora herself, to Mrs Basil, and to the memories of Maisie Maidan and to Florence. Edward never said anything.
Did the girl love Edward, or didn't she?
I don't know.
At that time I daresay she didn't though she certainly had done so before Leonora had got to work upon his reputation.
She certainly had loved him for what I call the public side of his record—for his good soldiering, for his saving lives at sea, for the excellent landlord that he was and the good sportsman.
But it is quite possible that all those things came to appear as nothing in her eyes when she discovered that he wasn't a good husband.
For, though women, as I see them, have little or no feeling of responsibility towards a county or a country or a career—although they may be entirely lacking in any kind of communal solidarity—they have an immense and automatically working instinct that attaches them to the interest of womanhood.
It is, of course, possible for any woman to cut out and to carry off any other woman's husband or lover.
But I rather think that a woman will only do this if she has reason to believe that the other woman has given her husband a bad time.
I am certain that if she thinks the man has been a brute to his wife she will, with her instinctive feeling for suffering femininity, "put him back", as the saying is.
I don't attach any particular importance to these generalizations of mine.
They may be right, they may be wrong; I am only an ageing American with very little knowledge of life.
You may take my generalizations or leave them.
But I am pretty certain that I am right in the case of Nancy Rufford—that she had loved Edward Ashburnham very deeply and tenderly.
It is nothing to the point that she let him have it good and strong as soon as she discovered that he had been unfaithful to Leonora and that his public services had cost more than Leonora thought they ought to have cost.
Nancy would be bound to let him have it good and strong then.
She would owe that to feminine public opinion; she would be driven to it by the instinct for self-preservation, since she might well imagine that if Edward had been unfaithful to Leonora, to Mrs Basil and to the memories of the other two, he might be unfaithful to herself.
And, no doubt, she had her share of the sex instinct that makes women be intolerably cruel to the beloved person.
Anyhow, I don't know whether, at this point, Nancy Rufford loved Edward Ashburnham.
I don't know whether she even loved him when, on getting, at Aden, the news of his suicide she went mad.
Because that may just as well have been for the sake of Leonora as for the sake of Edward.
Or it may have been for the sake of both of them.
I don't know.
I know nothing.
I am very tired.