Such trivialities, such praises of wealth, such conventional expression of morals as sifted through this passive creature’s mind, fell upon Carrie and for the while confused her.
On the other hand, her own feelings were a corrective influence.
The constant drag to something better was not to be denied.
By those things which address the heart was she steadily recalled.
In the apartments across the hall were a young girl and her mother. They were from Evansville, Indiana, the wife and daughter of a railroad treasurer.
The daughter was here to study music, the mother to keep her company.
Carrie did not make their acquaintance, but she saw the daughter coming in and going out.
A few times she had seen her at the piano in the parlour, and not infrequently had heard her play.
This young woman was particularly dressy for her station, and wore a jewelled ring or two which flashed upon her white fingers as she played.
Now Carrie was affected by music.
Her nervous composition responded to certain strains, much as certain strings of a harp vibrate when a corresponding key of a piano is struck.
She was delicately moulded in sentiment, and answered with vague ruminations to certain wistful chords. They awoke longings for those things which she did not have.
They caused her to cling closer to things she possessed.
One short song the young lady played in a most soulful and tender mood.
Carrie heard it through the open door from the parlour below.
It was at that hour between afternoon and night when, for the idle, the wanderer, things are apt to take on a wistful aspect.
The mind wanders forth on far journeys and returns with sheaves of withered and departed joys. Carrie sat at her window looking out.
Drouet had been away since ten in the morning.
She had amused herself with a walk, a book by Bertha M. Clay which Drouet had left there, though she did not wholly enjoy the latter, and by changing her dress for the evening. Now she sat looking out across the park as wistful and depressed as the nature which craves variety and life can be under such circumstances.
As she contemplated her new state, the strain from the parlour below stole upward. With it her thoughts became coloured and enmeshed.
She reverted to the things which were best and saddest within the small limit of her experience.
She became for the moment a repentant.
While she was in this mood Drouet came in, bringing with him an entirely different atmosphere.
It was dusk and Carrie had neglected to light the lamp.
The fire in the grate, too, had burned low.
“Where are you, Cad?” he said, using a pet name he had given her.
“Here,” she answered.
There was something delicate and lonely in her voice, but he could not hear it.
He had not the poetry in him that would seek a woman out under such circumstances and console her for the tragedy of life.
Instead, he struck a match and lighted the gas.
“Hello,” he exclaimed, “you’ve been crying.”
Her eyes were still wet with a few vague tears.
“Pshaw,” he said, “you don’t want to do that.”
He took her hand, feeling in his good-natured egotism that it was probably lack of his presence which had made her lonely.
“Come on, now,” he went on; “it’s all right.
Let’s waltz a little to that music.”
He could not have introduced a more incongruous proposition.
It made clear to Carrie that he could not sympathise with her.
She could not have framed thoughts which would have expressed his defect or made clear the difference between them, but she felt it.
It was his first great mistake.
What Drouet said about the girl’s grace, as she tripped out evenings accompanied by her mother, caused Carrie to perceive the nature and value of those little modish ways which women adopt when they would presume to be something.
She looked in the mirror and pursed up her lips, accompanying it with a little toss of the head, as she had seen the railroad treasurer’s daughter do.
She caught up her skirts with an easy swing, for had not Drouet remarked that in her and several others, and Carrie was naturally imitative.
She began to get the hang of those little things which the pretty woman who has vanity invariably adopts.
In short, her knowledge of grace doubled, and with it her appearance changed.
She became a girl of considerable taste.
Drouet noticed this.
He saw the new bow in her hair and the new way of arranging her locks which she affected one morning.
“You look fine that way, Cad,” he said.
“Do I?” she replied, sweetly.