"That's right," he said. "With her hair tied back like that, I never seen a gal who took so after her father.
Why she's the spittin' image of you when you was a boy."
I couldn't speak, only stare.
Had the idiot gone off his rocker?
Everybody knew Jo-Ann wasn't my daughter.
Doc laughed suddenly and slapped his hand on his thigh.
"I’ll never forget the time her mother came down to my office," he said.
"She was your wife then, of course.
I never seen such a big belly.
I figured, no wonder you got married so sudden like. You'd been doin' your plantin' early." He looked up at me, still smiling. "That was before I examined her, you understand," he said quickly.
"You could have knocked me over with a feather when the examination showed her only six weeks gone.
It was just one of those peculiar things where she carried real high.
She was so nervous an' upset just about then that she blew up with gas like a balloon.
I even went back to the papers an' checked your weddin' date just to make sure.
An' dang my britches if it weren't a fact you'd knocked her up at most two weeks after you were married.
But there's one thing I got to say for yuh, boy." He turned back at the door. "When you ram 'em, you ram 'em good.
Right up the ol' gazizzis, where it sticks!" And still laughing lewdly, he walked out. I felt the tight, sick knot ball up inside me. I sat down on the couch.
All these years. All these years and I had been wrong.
Suddenly, I knew what Amos had been going to tell me after we returned from the flight.
He'd seen how crazy I'd been that night and turned my own hate against me.
And there was little Monica could have done about it.
What a combination, Amos and me.
But at least, he'd seen the light by himself.
No one had to hit him over the head with it. And he'd tried to make up for it.
But I – I never even turned my head to seek the truth.
I'd been content to go along blaming the world for my own stupidity.
And I was the one who'd been at war with my father because I thought he didn't love me.
That was the biggest joke of all.
Now I could even face the truth in that.
It never had been his love that I'd doubted. It had been my own.
For deep inside of me, I’d always known that I could never love him as much as he loved me.
I looked up at Nevada. He was still leaning against the wall, but he wasn't smiling now.
"You saw it, too?"
"Sure." He nodded. "Everybody saw it – but you."
I closed my eyes.
Now I could see it.
It was like that morning in the hospital when I looked into the mirror and saw my father's face.
That was what I'd seen in Jo-Ann when I thought she looked so familiar this afternoon.
Her father's face.
My own.
"What shall I do, Nevada?" I groaned.
"What do yuh want to do, son?"
"I want them back."
"Sure that's what you want?"
I nodded.
"Then get 'em back," he said. He looked at his watch. "There's still fifteen minutes before the train pulls out."
"But how?
We'd never get there in time!"
He gestured to the desk. "There's the phone."
I looked at him wildly, then hobbled to the phone. I called the stationmaster's office at Reno and had them page her.