Daphne Dumorier Fullscreen Rebecca (1938)

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What sort of expression?'

'I don't know that I can explain.

You looked older suddenly, deceitful.

It was rather unpleasant.'

'I did not mean to.'

'No, I don't suppose you did.'

I drank some water, watching him over the rim of my glass.

'Don't you want me to look older?' I said.

'No:

'Why not?'

'Because it would not suit you.'

'One day I shall.

It can't be helped.

I shall have grey hair, and lines and things.'

'I don't mind that.'

'What do you mind then?'

'I don't want you to look like you did just now.

You had a twist to your mouth and a flash of knowledge in your eyes.

Not the right sort of knowledge.'

I felt very curious, rather excited.

'What do you mean, Maxim?

What isn't the right sort of knowledge?'

He did not answer for a moment.

Frith had come back into the room and was changing the plates.

Maxim waited until Frith had gone behind the screen and through the service door before speaking again.

'When I met you first you had a certain expression on your face,' he said slowly, 'and you have it still.

I'm not going to define it, I don't know how to.

But it was one of the reasons why I married you.

A moment ago, when you were going through that curious little performance, the expression had gone.

Something else had taken its place.'

'What sort of thing?

Explain to me, Maxim,' I said eagerly.

He considered me a moment, his eyebrows raised, whistling softly.

'Listen, my sweet.

When you were a little girl, were you ever forbidden to read certain books, and did your father put those books under lock and key?'

'Yes,' I said.

'Well, then.

A husband is not so very different from a father after all.

There is a certain type of knowledge I prefer you not to have.

It's better kept under lock and key.

So that's that.

And now eat up your peaches, and don't ask me any more questions, or I shall put you in the corner.'

'I wish you would not treat me as if I was six,' I said.

'How do you want to be treated?'

'Like other men treat their wives.'

'Knock you about, you mean?'

'Don't be absurd.

Why must you make a joke of everything?'

'I'm not joking.

I'm very serious.'