Why should it be different from the rest?
A certain number of imbeciles and quick-witted persons agree among themselves that they know (shall we say) Mexican; they impose themselves with this qualification upon society which respects them and governments which pay them.
Favours are showered upon them precisely because they have no real intelligence, and authority need not fear their raising the populace and creating an atmosphere of rant by the aid of generous sentiments!
For instance, Father Bari, to whom Ernesto IV has just awarded a pension of 4,000 francs and the Cross of his Order for having restored nineteen liries of a Greek dithyramb!
"But, Great God, have I indeed the right to find such things ridiculous?
Is it for me to complain?" he asked himself, suddenly, stopping short in the road, "has not that same Cross just been given to my governor at Naples?"
Fabrizio was conscious of a feeling of intense disgust; the fine enthusiasm for virtue which had just been making his heart beat high changed into the vile pleasure of having a good share in the spoils of a robbery.
"After all," he said to himself at length, with the lustreless eyes of a man who is dissatisfied with himself, "since my birth gives me the right to profit by these abuses, it would be a signal piece of folly on my part not to take my share, but I must never let myself denounce them in public."
This reasoning was by no means unsound; but Fabrizio had fallen a long way from that elevation of sublime happiness to which he had found himself transported an hour earlier.
The thought of privilege had withered that plant, always so delicate, which we name happiness.
"If we are not to believe in astrology," he went on, seeking to calm himself; "if this science is, like three quarters of the sciences that are not mathematical, a collection of enthusiastic simpletons and adroit hypocrites paid by the masters they serve, how does it come about that I think so often and with emotion of this fatal circumstance: I did make my escape from the prison at B——, but in the uniform and with the marching orders of a soldier who had been flung into prison with good cause?"
Fabrizio's reasoning could never succeed in penetrating farther; he went a hundred ways round the difficulty without managing to surmount it.
He was too young still; in his moments of leisure, his mind devoted itself with rapture to enjoying the sensations produced by the romantic circumstances with which his imagination was always ready to supply him.
He was far from employing his time in studying with patience the actual details of things in order to discover their causes.
Reality still seemed to him flat and muddy; I can understand a person's not caring to look at it, but then he ought not to argue about it.
Above all, he ought not to fashion objections out of the scattered fragments of his ignorance.
Thus it was that, though not lacking in brains, Fabrizio could not manage to see that his half-belief in omens was for him a religion, a profound impression received at his entering upon life.
To think of this belief was to feel, it was a happiness.
And he set himself resolutely to discover how this could be a proved, a real science, in the same category as geometry, for example.
He searched his memory strenuously for all the instances in which omens observed by him had not been followed by the auspicious or inauspicious events which they seemed to herald.
But all this time, while he believed himself to be following a line of reasoning and marching towards the truth, his attention kept coming joyfully to rest on the memory of the occasions on which the foreboding had been amply followed by the happy or unhappy accident which it had seemed to him to predict, and his heart was filled with respect and melted; and he would have felt an invincible repugnance for the person who denied the value of omens, especially if in doing so he had had recourse to irony.
Fabrizio walked on without noticing the distance he was covering, and had reached this point in his vain reasonings when, raising his head, he saw the wall of his father's garden.
This wall, which supported a fine terrace, rose to a height of more than forty feet above the road, on its right.
A cornice of wrought stone along the highest part, next to the balustrade, gave it a monumental air.
"It is not bad," Fabrizio said to himself dispassionately, "it is good architecture, a little in the Roman style"; he applied to it his recently acquired knowledge of antiquities. Then he turned his head away in disgust; his father's severities, and especially the denunciation of himself by his brother Ascanio on his return from his wanderings in France, came back to his mind.
"That unnatural denunciation was the origin of my present existence; I may detest, I may despise it; when all is said and done, it has altered my destiny.
What would have become of me once I had been packed off to Novara, and my presence barely tolerated in the house of my father's agent, if my aunt had not made love to a powerful Minister? If the said aunt had happened to possess merely a dry, conventional heart instead of that tender and passionate heart which loves me with a sort of enthusiasm that astonishes me?
Where should I be now if the Duchessa had had the heart of her brother the Marchese del Dongo?"
Oppressed by these cruel memories, Fabrizio began now to walk with an uncertain step; he came to the edge of the moat immediately opposite the magnificent facade of the castle.
Scarcely did he cast a glance at that great building, blackened by tune.
The noble language of architecture left him unmoved, the memory of his brother and father stopped his heart to every sensation of beauty, he was attentive only to the necessity of keeping on his guard in the presence of hypocritical and dangerous enemies.
He looked for an instant, but with a marked disgust, at the little window of the bedroom which he had occupied until 1815 on the third storey.
His father's character had robbed of all charm the memory of his early childhood.
"I have not set foot in it," he thought, "since the 7th of March, at eight o'clock in the evening.
I left it to go and get the passport from Vasi, and next morning my fear of spies made me hasten my departure.
When I passed through again after my visit to France, I had not time to go upstairs, even to look at my prints again, and that thanks to my brother's denouncing me."
Fabrizio turned away his head in horror.
"Priore Blanes is eighty-three at the very least," he said sorrowfully to himself; "he hardly ever comes to the castle now, from what my sister tells me; the infirmities of old age have had their effect on him.
That heart, once so strong and noble, is frozen by age.
Heaven knows how long it is since he last went up to his campanile!
I shall hide myself in the cellar, under the vats or under the wine-press, until he is awake; I shall not go in and disturb the good old man in his sleep; probably he will have forgotten my face, even; six years mean a great deal at his age!
I shall find only the tomb of a friend!
And it is really childish of me," he added, "to have come here to provoke the disgust that the sight of my father's castle gives me."
Fabrizio now came to the little piazza in front of the church; it was with an astonishment bordering on delirium that he saw, on the second stage of the ancient campanile, the long and narrow window lighted by the little lantern of Priore Blanes.
The Priore was in the habit of leaving it there when he climbed to the cage of planks which formed his observatory, so that the light should not prevent him from reading the face of his plain sphere.
This chart of the heavens was stretched over a great jar of terracotta which had originally belonged to one of the orange-trees at the castle.
In the opening, at the bottom of the jar, burned the tiniest of lamps, the smoke of which was carried away from the jar through a little tin pipe, and the shadow of the pipe indicated the north on the chart.
All these memories of things so simple in themselves deluged Fabrizio's heart with emotions and filled him with happiness.
Almost without thinking, he put his hands to his lips and gave the little, short, low whistle which had formerly been the signal for his admission.
At once he heard several tugs given to the cord which, from the observatory above, opened the latch of the campanile door.