"I don't think so."
"Don't talk rubbish; Franz, in a couple of days you'll see for yourself.
What is it anyway—an amputated leg? here they patch up far worse things than that."
He lifts one hand.
"Look here though, these fingers."
"That's the result of the operation.
Just eat decently and you'll soon be well again.
Do they look after you properly?"
He points to a dish that is still half full.
I get excited.
"Franz, you must eat.
Eating is the main thing.
That looks good too."
He turns away.
After a pause he says slowly:
"I wanted to become a head-forester once."
"So you may still," I assure him.
"There are splendid artificial limbs now, you'd hardly know there was anything missing.
They are fixed on to the muscles.
You can move the fingers and work and even write with an artificial hand.
And besides, they will always be making new improvements."
For a while he lies still.
Then he says:
"You can take my lace-up boots with you for Muller."
I nod and wonder what to say to encourage him.
His lips have fallen away, his mouth has become larger, his teeth stick out and look as though they were made of chalk.
The flesh melts, the forehead bulges more prominently, the cheekbones protrude.
The skeleton is working itself through.
The eyes are already sunken in.
In a couple of hours it will be over.
He is not the first that I have seen thus; but we grew up together and that always makes it a bit different.
I have copied his essays.
At school he used to wear a brown coat with a belt and shiny sleeves.
He was the only one of us, too, who could do the giant's turn on the horizontal bar.
His hair flew in his face like silk when he did it.
Kantorek was proud of him.
But he couldn't stand cigarettes.
His skin was very white; he had something of the girl about him.
I glance at my boots.
They are big and clumsy, the breeches are tucked into them, and standing up one looks well-built and powerful in these great drainpipes.
But when we go bathing and strip, suddenly we have slender legs again and slight shoulders.
We are no longer soldiers but little more than boys; no one would believe that we could carry packs.
It is a strange moment when we stand naked; then we become civilians, and almost feel ourselves to be so.
When bathing Franz Kemmerich looked as slight and frail as a child.
There he lies now—but why?
The whole world ought to pass by this bed and say: "That is Franz Kemmerich, nineteen and a half years old, he doesn't want to die.
Let him not die!"
My thoughts become confused.
This atmosphere of carbolic and gangrene clogs the lungs, it is a thick gruel, it suffocates.
It grows dark.