Yes,' real quiet, and these green tea visions lasted until the third day.
I had understood everything by then, my life was decided, I knew I loved Marylou, I knew I had to fir my father wherever he is and save him, I knew you were buddy et cetera, I knew how great Carlo is.
I knew a thousand things about everybody everywhere.
Then the third day began having a terrible series of waking nightmares, and the were so absolutely horrible and grisly and green that I lay there doubled up with my hands around my knees, saying,
'Oh, oh, oh, ah, oh… ' The neighbors heard me and sent for a doctor.
Camille was away with the baby, visiting hot folks.
The whole neighborhood was concerned.
They came in and found me lying on the bed with my arms stretched out forever.
Sal, I ran to Marylou with some of that tea.
And do you know that the same thing happened to that dumb little box? – the same visions, the same logic, the same final decision about everything, the view of all truths in one painful In leading to nightmares and pain – ack!
Then I knew I loved her so much I wanted to kill her.
I ran home and beat my head on the wall.
I ran to Ed Dunkel; he's back in Frisco with Galatea; I asked him about a guy we know has a gun, I went the guy, I got the gun, I ran to Marylou, I looked down mail-slot, she was sleeping with a guy, had to retreat and he hesitate, came back in an hour, I barged in, she was alone – and gave her the gun and told her to kill me.
She held the gun in her hand the longest time.
I asked her for a sweet dead pact.
She didn't want.
I said one of us had to die.
She said no.
I beat my head on the wall.
Man, I was out of my mind.
She'll tell you, she talked me out of it."
"Then what happened?"
"That was months ago – after you left.
She finally married a used-car dealer, dumb bastit has promised to kill me if he finds me, if necessary I shall have to defend myself and kill him and I'll go to San Quentin, 'cause, Sal, one more rap of any kind and I go to San Quentin for life – that's the end of me.
Bad hand and all."
He showed me his hand.
I hadn't noticed in the excitement that he had suffered a terrible accident to his hand.
"I Ht Marylou on the brow on February twenty-sixth at six o'clock in the evening – in fact six-ten, because I remember I had to make my hotshot freight in an hour and twenty minutes – the last time we met and the last time we decided everything, and now listen to this: my thumb only deflected off her brow and she didn't even have a bruise and in fact laughed, but my thumb broke above the wrist and a horrible doctor made a setting of the bones that was difficult and took three separate castings, twenty-three combined hours of sitting on hard benches waiting, et cetera, and the final cast had a traction pin stuck through the tip of my thumb, so in April when they took off the cast the pin infected my bone and I developed osteomyelitis which has become chronic, and after an operation which failed and a month in a cast the result was the amputation of a wee bare piece off the tip-ass end."
He unwrapped the bandages and showed me.
The flesh, about half an inch, was missing under the nail.
"It got from worse to worse.
I had to support Camille and Amy and had to work as fast as I could at Firestone as mold man, curing recapped tires and later hauling big hunnerd-fifty-pound tires from the floor to the top of the cars – could only use my good hand and kept banging the bad – broke it again, had it reset again, and it's getting all infected and swoled again.
So now I take care of baby while Camille works.
You see?
Heeby-jeebies, I'm classification three-A, jazz-hounded Moriarty has a sore butt, his wife gives him daily injections of penicillin for his thumb, which produces hives, for he's allergic.
He must take sixty thousand units of Fleming's juice within a month.
He must take one tablet every four hours for this month to combat allergy produced from his juice.
He must take codeine aspirin to relieve the pain in his thumb.
He must have surgery on his leg for an inflamed cyst.
He must rise next Monday at six A.M. to get his teeth cleaned.
He must see a foot doctor twice a week for treatment.
He must take cough syrup each night.
He must blow and snort constantly to clear his nose, which has collapsed just under the bridge where an operation some years ago weakened it.
He lost his thumb on his throwing arm.
Greatest seventy-yard passer in the history of New Mexico State Reformatory.
And yet – and yet, I've never felt better and finer and happier with the world and to see little lovely children playing in the sun and I am so glad to see you, my fine gone wonderful Sal, and I know, I know everything will be all right.
You'll see her tomorrow, my terrific darling beautiful daughter can now stand alone for thirty seconds at a time, she weighs twenty-two pounds, is twenty-nine inches long.
I've just figured out she is thirty-one-and-a-quarter-per-cent English, twenty-seven-and-a-half-per-cent Irish, twenty-five-per-cent German, eight-and-three-quarters-per-cent Dutch, seven-and-a-half-per-cent Scotch, one-hun-dred-per-cent wonderful."
He fondly congratulated me for the book I had finished, which was now accepted by the publishers.
"We know life, Sal, we're growing older, each of us, little by little, and are coming to know things.