I distrust—though God knows I am not naturally a suspicious man—the most apparently trifling events that are now taking place about us.
You have held nobly to your resolution to own the truth.
Prepare yourself, before the evening is over, to be tried and tempted again."
Mercy lifted her head.
Fear took the place of grief in her eyes, as they rested in startled inquiry on Julian's face.
"How is it possible that temptation can come to me now?" she asked.
"I will leave it to events to answer that question," he said. "You will not have long to wait.
In the meantime I have put you on your guard."
He stooped, and spoke his next words earnestly, close at her ear.
"Hold fast by the admirable courage which you have shown thus far," he went on. "Suffer anything rather than suffer the degradation of yourself.
Be the woman whom I once spoke of—the woman I still have in my mind—who can nobly reveal the noble nature that is in her.
And never forget this—my faith in you is as firm as ever!"
She looked at him proudly and gratefully.
"I am pledged to justify your faith in me," she said.
"I have put it out of my own power to yield.
Horace has my promise that I will explain everything to him, in this room."
Julian started.
"Has Horace himself asked it of you?" he inquired.
"He, at least, has no suspicion of the truth."
"Horace has appealed to my duty to him as his betrothed wife," she answered. "He has the first claim to my confidence—he resents my silence, and he has a right to resent it.
Terrible as it will be to open his eyes to the truth, I must do it if he asks me."
She was looking at Julian while she spoke.
The old longing to associate with the hard trial of the confession the one man who had felt for her, and believed in her, revived under another form.
If she could only know, while she was saying the fatal words to Horace, that Julian was listening too, she would be encouraged to meet the worst that could happen!
As the idea crossed her mind, she observed that Julian was looking toward the door through which they had lately passed. In an instant she saw the means to her end.
Hardly waiting to hear the few kind expressions of sympathy and approval which he addressed to her, she hinted timidly at the proposal which she had now to make to him.
"Are you going back into the next room?" she asked.
"Not if you object to it," he replied.
"I don't object.
I want you to be there."
"After Horace has joined you?"
"Yes.
After Horace has joined me."
"Do you wish to see me when it is over?"
She summoned her resolution, and told him frankly what she had in her mind.
"I want you to be near me while I am speaking to Horace," she said.
"It will give me courage if I can feel that I am speaking to you as well as to him.
I can count on your sympathy—and sympathy is so precious to me now!
Am I asking too much, if I ask you to leave the door unclosed when you go back to the dining-room?
Think of the dreadful trial—to him as well as to me!
I am only a woman; I am afraid I may sink under it, if I have no friend near me.
And I have no friend but you."
In those simple words she tried her powers of persuasion on him for the first time.
Between perplexity and distress Julian was, for the moment, at a loss how to answer her.
The love for Mercy which he dared not acknowledge was as vital a feeling in him as the faith in her which he had been free to avow.
To refuse anything that she asked of him in her sore need—and, more even than that, to refuse to hear the confession which it had been her first impulse to make to him—these were cruel sacrifices to his sense of what was due to Horace and of what was due to himself.
But shrink as he might, even from the appearance of deserting her, it was impossible for him (except under a reserve which was almost equivalent to a denial) to grant her request.
"All that I can do I will do," he said. "The doors shall be left unclosed, and I will remain in the next room, on this condition, that Horace knows of it as well as you.
I should be unworthy of your confidence in me if I consented to be a listener on any other terms.
You understand that, I am sure, as well as I do."