She came forward, out of her chair and over to him.
She rested her hand on his shoulder a moment, breathing quickly, and then slipped into his arms. And in his large, easy way, desirous of not inflicting hurt, knowing that to repulse this proffer of herself was to inflict the most grievous hurt a woman could receive, he folded his arms around her and held her close.
But there was no warmth in the embrace, no caress in the contact.
She had come into his arms, and he held her, that was all.
She nestled against him, and then, with a change of position, her hands crept up and rested upon his neck.
But his flesh was not fire beneath those hands, and he felt awkward and uncomfortable.
"What makes you tremble so?" he asked. "Is it a chill?
Shall I light the grate?"
He made a movement to disengage himself, but she clung more closely to him, shivering violently.
"It is merely nervousness," she said with chattering teeth. "I’ll control myself in a minute.
There, I am better already."
Slowly her shivering died away.
He continued to hold her, but he was no longer puzzled.
He knew now for what she had come.
"My mother wanted me to marry Charley Hapgood," she announced.
"Charley Hapgood, that fellow who speaks always in platitudes?" Martin groaned.
Then he added, "And now, I suppose, your mother wants you to marry me."
He did not put it in the form of a question.
He stated it as a certitude, and before his eyes began to dance the rows of figures of his royalties.
"She will not object, I know that much," Ruth said.
"She considers me quite eligible?"
Ruth nodded.
"And yet I am not a bit more eligible now than I was when she broke our engagement," he meditated. "I haven’t changed any.
I’m the same Martin Eden, though for that matter I’m a bit worse-I smoke now.
Don’t you smell my breath?"
In reply she pressed her open fingers against his lips, placed them graciously and playfully, and in expectancy of the kiss that of old had always been a consequence.
But there was no caressing answer of Martin’s lips.
He waited until the fingers were removed and then went on.
"I am not changed.
I haven’t got a job.
I’m not looking for a job.
Furthermore, I am not going to look for a job.
And I still believe that Herbert Spencer is a great and noble man and that Judge Blount is an unmitigated ass.
I had dinner with him the other night, so I ought to know."
"But you didn’t accept father’s invitation," she chided.
"So you know about that?
Who sent him?
Your mother?"
She remained silent.
"Then she did send him.
I thought so.
And now I suppose she has sent you."
"No one knows that I am here," she protested. "Do you think my mother would permit this?"
"She’d permit you to marry me, that’s certain."
She gave a sharp cry. "Oh, Martin, don’t be cruel. You have not kissed me once.
You are as unresponsive as a stone.
And think what I have dared to do." She looked about her with a shiver, though half the look was curiosity. "Just think of where I am."
" I could die for you!
I could die for you !"-Lizzie’s words were ringing in his ears.
"Why didn’t you dare it before?" he asked harshly. "When I hadn’t a job?