Only such sufferings can——And yet He forgave, forgave forever!"
He resumed his pacing, his very soul rent with suffering and his face covered with beads of perspiration.
"He pardoned every one," he reflected aloud. "Not only those who at that time gave Him vinegar mingled with gall to drink, but also those who are doing the same thing now and will do it again in future ages. What a horror!"
Suddenly he stopped before her and said:
"And you—have you forgiven?"
Instead of replying she threw herself on him and clasped him firmly.
"You must forgive me," he went on. "For every one—on your own account—and for those who are no longer here. What has happened?" he cried, looking round distractedly. "Where are they all?" _____
Utterly shaken and exhausted, they retired to their rooms.
But Porfiry Vladimirych could not sleep.
He tossed in his bed, all the while trying to recall an obligation that lay on him.
Suddenly he clearly remembered the words that had flashed through his mind about two hours before,
"I must walk to mother's grave and take leave of her." An exhausting restlessness seized his being.
At last he got up and donned his dressing-gown.
It was still dark, and unbroken silence reigned in the house.
For a while Porfiry Vladimirych paced back and forth in the room, stopped before the lighted ikon of the Saviour with a thorny crown, and scanned his face.
Finally he determined upon a course of action, perhaps half-unconsciously. He stole into the antechamber and opened the outer door.
Outside a March blizzard was raging and blinded him with a torrent of sleet.
Porfiry Vladimirych struggled along the road, splashing through the puddles, insensible to the wind and the snow. Instinctively he drew together the skirts of his dressing-gown.
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Early next morning a messenger came speeding from the village near the churchyard where Arina Petrovna was buried. He brought the news that the frozen body of the Golovliovo master had been found by the roadside.
The servants rushed into Anninka's room. She lay in her bed unconscious in delirium.
A messenger was hastily dispatched to Nadezhda Ivanovna Galkina (daughter of Aunt Varvara Mikhailovna), who ever since the previous autumn had been keeping a watchful eye on everything taking place at Golovliovo.