The youngest of ten children, he ran away from home at the age of twelve, before he could write his name (or would write it, his father believed) on a ship.
He made the voyage around the Horn to California and turned Catholic; he lived for a year in a monastery.
Ten years later he reached Missouri from the west.
Three weeks after he arrived he was married, to the daughter of a family of Huguenot stock which had emigrated from Carolina by way of Kentucky.
On the day after the wedding he said,
“I guess I had better settle down.”
He began that day to settle down.
The wedding celebration was still in progress, and his first step was to formally deny allegiance to the Catholic church.
He did this in a saloon, insisting that every one present listen to him and state their objections; he was a little insistent on there being objections, though there were none; not, that is, up to the time when he was led away by friends.
The next day he said that he meant it, anyhow; that he would not belong to a church full of frogeating slaveholders.
That was in Saint Louis.
He bought a home there, and a year later he was a father.
He said then that he had denied the Catholic church a year ago for the sake of his son’s soul; almost as soon as the boy was born, he set about to imbue the child with the religion of his New England forebears.
There was no Unitarian meetinghouse available, and Burden could not read the English Bible.
But he had learned to read in Spanish from the priests in California, and as soon as the child could walk Burden (he pronounced it Burden now, since he could not spell it at all and the priests had taught him to write it laboriously so with a hand more apt for a rope or a gunbutt or a knife than a pen) began to read to the child in Spanish from the book which he had brought with him from California, interspersing the fine, sonorous flowing of mysticism in a foreign tongue with harsh, extemporised dissertations composed half of the bleak and bloodless logic which he remembered from his father on interminable New England Sundays, and half of immediate hellfire and tangible brimstone of which any country Methodist circuit rider would have been proud.
The two of them would be alone in the room: the tall, gaunt, Nordic man, and the small, dark, vivid child who had inherited his mother’s build and coloring, like people of two different races.
When the boy was about five, Burden killed a man in an argument over slavery and had to take his family and move, leave Saint Louis.
He moved westward, “to get away from Democrats,” he said.
The settlement to which he moved consisted of a store, a blacksmith shop, a church and two saloons.
Here Burden spent much of his time talking politics and in his harsh loud voice cursing slavery and slaveholders.
His reputation had come with him and he was known to carry a pistol, and his opinions were received without comment, at least.
At times, especially on Saturday nights, he came home, still full of straight whiskey and the sound of his own ranting.
Then he would wake his son (the mother was dead now and there were three daughters, all with blue eyes) with his hard hand.
“I’ll learn you to hate two things,” he would say, “or I’ll frail the tar out of you.
And those things are hell and slaveholders.
Do you hear me?”
“Yes,” the boy would say. “I can’t help but hear you.
Get on to bed and let me sleep.”
He was no proselyter, missionary.
Save for an occasional minor episode with pistols, none of which resulted fatally, he confined himself to his own blood. “Let them all go to their own benighted hell,” he said to his children. “But I’ll beat the loving God into the four of you as long as I can raise my arm.”
That would be on Sunday, each Sunday when, washed and clean, the children in calico or denim, the father in his broadcloth frockcoat bulging over the pistol in his hip pocket, and the collarless plaited shirt which the oldest girl laundered each Saturday as well as the dead mother ever had, they gathered in the clean crude parlor while Burden read from the once gilt and blazoned book in that language which none of them understood.
He continued to do that up to the time when his son ran away from home.
The son’s name was Nathaniel.
He ran away at fourteen and did not return for sixteen years, though they heard from him twice in that time by word-of-mouth messenger.
The first time was from Colorado, the second time from Old Mexico.
He did not say what he was doing in either place.
“He was all right when I left him,” the messenger said.
This was the second messenger; it was in 1863, and the messenger was eating breakfast in the kitchen, bolting his food with decorous celerity.
The three girls, the two oldest almost grown now, were serving him, standing with arrested dishes and softly open mouths in their full, coarse, clean dresses, about the crude table, the father sitting opposite the messenger across the table, his head propped on his single hand.
The other arm he had lost two years ago while a member of a troop of partisan guerilla horse in the Kansas fighting, and his head and beard were grizzled now.
But he was still vigorous, and his frockcoat still bulged behind over the butt of the heavy pistol.
“He got into a little trouble,” the messenger said. “But he was still all right the last I heard.”
“Trouble?” the father said.
“He killed a Mexican that claimed he stole his horse.
You know how them Spanish are about white men, even when they don’t kill Mexicans.” The messenger drank some coffee. “But I reckon they have to be kind of strict, with the country filling up with tenderfeet and all.—Thank you kindly,” he said, as the oldest girl slid a fresh stack of corn cakes onto his plate; “yessum, I can reach the sweetening fine.—Folks claim it wasn’t the Mexican’s horse noways.
Claim the Mexican never owned no horse.
But I reckon even them Spanish have got to be strict, with these Easterners already giving the West such a bad name.”
The father grunted. “I’ll be bound.
If there was trouble there, I’ll be bound he was in it.
You tell him,” he said violently, “if he lets them yellowbellied priests bamboozle him, I’ll shoot him myself quick as I would a Reb.”