The captain suddenly began to shake with dumb sobs, and Kolya's lips and chin twitched.
"Father, father!
How sorry I am for you!" Ilusha moaned bitterly.
"Ilusha... darling... the doctor said... you would be all right... we shall be happy... the doctor... " the captain began.
"Ah, father!
I know what the new doctor said to you about me.... I saw!" cried Ilusha, and again he hugged them both with all his strength, hiding his face on his father's shoulder.
"Father, don't cry, and when I die get a good boy, another one... choose one of them all, a good one, call him Ilusha and love him instead of me..."
"Hush, old man, you'll get well," Krassotkin cried suddenly, in a voice that sounded angry.
"But don't ever forget me, father," Ilusha went on, "come to my grave...and father, bury me by our big stone, where we used to go for our walk, and come to me there with Krassotkin in the evening... and Perezvon... I shall expect you.... Father, father!"
His voice broke. They were all three silent, still embracing.
Nina was crying, quietly in her chair, and at last seeing them all crying, "mamma," too, burst into tears.
"Ilusha!
Ilusha!" she exclaimed.
Krassotkin suddenly released himself from Ilusha's embrace.
"Good-bye, old man, mother expects me back to dinner," he said quickly. "What a pity I did not tell her!
She will be dreadfully anxious... But after dinner I'll come back to you for the whole day, for the whole evening, and I'll tell you all sorts of things, all sorts of things.
And I'll bring Perezvon, but now I will take him with me, because he will begin to howl when I am away and bother you. Good-bye!
And he ran out into the passage.
He didn't want to cry, but in the passage he burst into tears.
Alyosha found him crying.
"Kolya, you must be sure to keep your word and come, or he will be terribly disappointed," Alyosha said emphatically.
"I will!
Oh, how I curse myself for not having come before" muttered Kolya, crying, and no longer ashamed of it.
At that moment the captain flew out of the room, and at once closed the door behind him.
His face looked frenzied, his lips were trembling.
He stood before the two and flung up his arms.
"I don't want a good boy!
I don't want another boy!" he muttered in a wild whisper, clenching his teeth. "If I forget thee, knees before the wooden bench.
Pressing his fists against his head, he began sobbing with absurd whimpering cries, doing his utmost that his cries should not be heard in the room.
Kolya ran out into the street.
"Good-bye, Karamazov?
Will you come yourself?" he cried sharply and angrily to Alyosha.
"I will certainly come in the evening."
"What was that he said about Jerusalem?... What did he mean by that?"
"It's from the Bible.
'If I forget thee, Jerusalem,' that is, if I forget all that is most precious to me, if I let anything take its place, then may-"
"I understand, that's enough!
Mind you come!
Ici, Perezvon!" he cried with positive ferocity to the dog, and with rapid strides he went home.
Book XI.
Ivan
Chapter 1.
At Grushenka's
ALYOSHA went towards the cathedral square to the widow Morozov's house to see Grushenka, who had sent Fenya to him early in the morning with an urgent message begging him to come.
Questioning Fenya, Alyosha learned that her mistress had been particularly distressed since the previous day.
During the two months that had passed since Mitya's arrest, Alyosha had called frequently at the widow Morozov's house, both from his own inclination and to take messages for Mitya.
Three days after Mitya's arrest, Grushenka was taken very ill and was ill for nearly five weeks.
For one whole week she was unconscious.
She was very much changed- thinner and a little sallow, though she had for the past fortnight been well enough to go out.
But to Alyosha her face was even more attractive than before, and he liked to meet her eyes when he went in to her.