"Well," she said to him, "for all your rowing me that night, I've called in, for I have something to tell you.
I think I shall get married and settled again.
Only you must help me: and you can do no less, after what I've stood 'ee."
"I'll do anything to get thee off my hands!"
"Very well.
I am now going to look for my young man.
He's on the loose I'm afraid, and I must get him home.
All I want you to do to-night is not to fasten the door, in case I should want to sleep here, and should be late."
"I thought you'd soon get tired of giving yourself airs and keeping away!"
"Well—don't do the door.
That's all I say."
She then sallied out again, and first hastening back to Jude's to make sure that he had not returned, began her search for him.
A shrewd guess as to his probable course took her straight to the tavern which Jude had formerly frequented, and where she had been barmaid for a brief term.
She had no sooner opened the door of the "Private Bar" than her eyes fell upon him—sitting in the shade at the back of the compartment, with his eyes fixed on the floor in a blank stare.
He was drinking nothing stronger than ale just then.
He did not observe her, and she entered and sat beside him. Jude looked up, and said without surprise:
"You've come to have something, Arabella? … I'm trying to forget her: that's all!
But I can't; and I am going home."
She saw that he was a little way on in liquor, but only a little as yet.
"I've come entirely to look for you, dear boy.
You are not well.
Now you must have something better than that."
Arabella held up her finger to the barmaid.
"You shall have a liqueur—that's better fit for a man of education than beer.
You shall have maraschino, or curacao dry or sweet, or cherry brandy.
I'll treat you, poor chap!"
"I don't care which!
Say cherry brandy… Sue has served me badly, very badly.
I didn't expect it of Sue!
I stuck to her, and she ought to have stuck to me.
I'd have sold my soul for her sake, but she wouldn't risk hers a jot for me.
To save her own soul she lets mine go damn! … But it isn't her fault, poor little girl—I am sure it isn't!"
How Arabella had obtained money did not appear, but she ordered a liqueur each, and paid for them.
When they had drunk these Arabella suggested another; and Jude had the pleasure of being, as it were, personally conducted through the varieties of spirituous delectation by one who knew the landmarks well.
Arabella kept very considerably in the rear of Jude; but though she only sipped where he drank, she took as much as she could safely take without losing her head—which was not a little, as the crimson upon her countenance showed.
Her tone towards him to-night was uniformly soothing and cajoling; and whenever he said
"I don't care what happens to me," a thing he did continually, she replied,
"But I do very much!"
The closing hour came, and they were compelled to turn out; whereupon Arabella put her arm round his waist, and guided his unsteady footsteps.
When they were in the streets she said: "I don't know what our landlord will say to my bringing you home in this state.
I expect we are fastened out, so that he'll have to come down and let us in."
"I don't know—I don't know."
"That's the worst of not having a home of your own. I tell you, Jude, what we had best do. Come round to my father's—I made it up with him a bit to-day.
I can let you in, and nobody will see you at all; and by to-morrow morning you'll be all right."
"Anything—anywhere," replied Jude.
"What the devil does it matter to me?"
They went along together, like any other fuddling couple, her arm still round his waist, and his, at last, round hers; though with no amatory intent; but merely because he was weary, unstable, and in need of support.
"This—is th' Martyrs'—burning-place," he stammered as they dragged across a broad street.
"I remember—in old Fuller's Holy State—and I am reminded of it—by our passing by here—old Fuller in his Holy State says, that at the burning of Ridley, Doctor Smith—preached sermon, and took as his text
'Though I give my body to be burned, and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing.'—Often think of it as I pass here.