Grandmother said, smiling:
“He has made God tired of him.
Every evening he has his tale of woe, and about what?
He is old now, and he does not need anything; yet he is always complaining and working himself into a frenzy about something.
I expect God laughs when He hears his voice in the evening. There’s Vassili Kashirin grumbling again!’
Come and go to bed now.”
I made up my mind to take up the occupation of catching singing-birds. I thought it would be a good way of earning a living. I would catch them, and grandmother would sell them.
I bought a net, a hoop, and a trap, and made a cage. At dawn I took my place in a hollow among the bushes, while grandmother went in the woods with a basket and a bag to find the last mushrooms, bulbs, and nuts.
The tired September sun had only just risen. Its pale rays were now extinguished by clouds, now fell like a silver veil upon me in the causeway.
At the bottom of the hollow it was still dusk, and a white mist rose from it. Its clayey sides were dark and bare, and the other side, which was more sloping, was covered with grass, thick bushes, and yellow, brown, and scarlet leaves. A fresh wind raised them and swept them along the ditch.
On the ground, among the turnip-tops, the gold-finch uttered its cry. I saw, among the ragged, gray grass, birds with red caps on their lively heads.
About me fluttered curious titmouses. They made a great noise and fuss, comically blowing out their white cheeks, just like the young men of Kunavin Street on a Sunday. Swift, clever, spiteful, they wanted to know all and to touch everything, and they fell into the trap one after the other.
It was pitiful to see how they beat their wings, but my business was strictly commerce. I changed the birds over into the spare cage and hid them in a bag. In the dark they kept quiet.
A flock of siskins settled on a hawthorn-bush. The bush was suffused by sunlight. The siskins were glad of the sun and chirped more merrily than ever. Their antics were like those of schoolboys.
The thirsty, tame, speckled magpie, late in setting out on his journey to a warmer country, sat on the bending bough of a sweetbriar, cleaning his wing feathers and insolently looking at his prey with his black eyes.
The lark soared on high, caught a bee, and, carefully depositing it on a thorn, once more settled on the ground, with his thievish head alert.
Noiselessly flew the talking-bird, — the hawfinch, — the object of my longing dreams, if only I could catch him.
A bullfinch, driven from the flock, was perched on an alder-tree. Red, important, like a general, he chirped angrily, shaking his black beak.
The higher the sun mounted, the more birds there were, and the more gayly they sang.
The hollow was full of the music of autumn. The ceaseless rustle of the bushes in the wind, and the passionate songs of the birds, could not drown that soft, sweetly melancholy noise. I heard in it the farewell song of summer. It whispered to me words meant for my ears alone, and of their own accord they formed themselves into a song.
At the same time my memory unconsciously recalled to my mind pictures of the past.
From somewhere above grandmother cried:
“Where are you?”
She sat on the edge of the pathway. She had spread out a handkerchief on which she had laid bread, cucumber, turnips, and apples. In the midst of this display a small, very beautiful cut-glass decanter stood. It had a crystal stopper, the head of Napoleon, and in the goblet was a measure of vodka, distilled from herbs.
“How good it is, O Lord!” said grandmother, gratefully.
“I have composed a song.”
“Yes? Well?”
I repeated to her something which I thought was like poetry.
“That winter draws near the signs are many;
Farewell to thee, my summer sun!”
But she interrupted without hearing me out.
“I know a song like that, only it is a better one.”
And she repeated in a singsong voice:
“Oi, the summer sun has gone
To dark nights behind the distant woods!
Ekh! I am left behind, a maiden,
Alone, without the joys of spring.
Every morn I wander round;
I trace the walks I took in May.
The bare fields unhappy look;
There it was I lost my youth.
Oif my friends, my kind friends,
Take my heart from my white breast,
Bury my heart in the snow!”
My conceit as an author suffered not a little, but I was delighted with this song, and very sorry for the girl.
Grandmother said::
“That is how grief sings.
That was made up by a young girl, you know. She went out walking all the springtime, and before the winter her dear love had thrown her over, perhaps for another girl. She wept because her heart was sore.
You cannot speak well and truly on what you have not experienced for yourself. You see what a good song she made up.”
When she sold a bird for the first time, for forty copecks, she was very surprised.