So he had never left her alone.
It must have been about four in the afternoon when Sam's conscience awoke.
He was limp and drenched, rather from anxiety than the heat or fatigue.
Until now he had been hoping to strike the trail that led to the Frio crossing and the Chapman ranch.
He must have crossed it at some dim part of it and ridden beyond.
If so he was now something like fifty miles from home.
If he could strike a ranch—a camp—any place where he could get a fresh horse and inquire the road, he would ride all night to get back to Marthy and the kid.
So, I have hinted, Sam was seized by remorse.
There was a big lump in his throat as he thought of the cross words he had spoken to his wife.
Surely it was hard enough for her to live in that horrible country without having to bear the burden of his abuse.
He cursed himself grimly, and felt a sudden flush of shame that over-glowed the summer heat as he remembered the many times he had flouted and railed at her because she had a liking for reading fiction.
"Ther only so'ce ov amusement ther po' gal's got," said Sam aloud, with a sob, which unaccustomed sound caused Mexico to shy a bit.
"A-livin' with a sore-headed kiote like me—a low-down skunk that ought to be licked to death with a saddle cinch—a-cookin' and a-washin' and a-livin' on mutton and beans and me abusin' her fur takin' a squint or two in a little book!"
He thought of Marthy as she had been when he first met her in Dogtown—smart, pretty, and saucy—before the sun had turned the roses in her cheeks brown and the silence of the chaparral had tamed her ambitions.
"Ef I ever speaks another hard word to ther little gal," muttered Sam, "or fails in the love and affection that's coming to her in the deal, I hopes a wildcat'll t'ar me to pieces."
He knew what he would do.
He would write to Garcia & Jones, his San Antonio merchants where he bought his supplies and sold his wool, and have them send down a big box of novels and reading matter for Marthy.
Things were going to be different.
He wondered whether a little piano could be placed in one of the rooms of the ranch house without the family having to move out of doors.
In nowise calculated to allay his self-reproach was the thought that Marthy and Randy would have to pass the night alone.
In spite of their bickerings, when night came Marthy was wont to dismiss her fears of the country, and rest her head upon Sam's strong arm with a sigh of peaceful content and dependence.
And were her fears so groundless?
Sam thought of roving, marauding Mexicans, of stealthy cougars that sometimes invaded the ranches, of rattlesnakes, centipedes, and a dozen possible dangers.
Marthy would be frantic with fear.
Randy would cry, and call for dada to come.
Still the interminable succession of stretches of brush, cactus, and mesquite.
Hollow after hollow, slope after slope—all exactly alike—all familiar by constant repetition, and yet all strange and new.
If he could only arrive somewhere.
The straight line is Art.
Nature moves in circles.
A straightforward man is more an artificial product than a diplomatist is.
Men lost in the snow travel in exact circles until they sink, exhausted, as their footprints have attested.
Also, travellers in philosophy and other mental processes frequently wind up at their starting-point.
It was when Sam Webber was fullest of contrition and good resolves that Mexico, with a heavy sigh, subsided from his regular, brisk trot into a slow complacent walk.
They were winding up an easy slope covered with brush ten or twelve feet high.
"I say now, Mex," demurred Sam, "this here won't do.
I know you're plumb tired out, but we got ter git along.
Oh, Lordy, ain't there no mo' houses in the world!"
He gave Mexico a smart kick with his heels.
Mexico gave a protesting grunt as if to say:
"What's the use of that, now we're so near?" He quickened his gait into a languid trot.
Rounding a great clump of black chaparral he stopped short.
Sam dropped the bridle reins and sat, looking into the back door of his own house, not ten yards away.
Marthy, serene and comfortable, sat in her rocking-chair before the door in the shade of the house, with her feet resting luxuriously upon the steps.
Randy, who was playing with a pair of spurs on the ground, looked up for a moment at his father and went on spinning the rowels and singing a little song.
Marthy turned her head lazily against the back of the chair and considered the arrivals with emotionless eyes.
She held a book in her lap with her finger holding the place.
Sam shook himself queerly, like a man coming out of a dream, and slowly dismounted.
He moistened his dry lips.
"I see you are still a-settin'," he said, "a-readin' of them billy-by-dam yaller-back novils."