We were all startled.
“It will soon be over,” said the old man, looking towards the window. Then he got up and began walking up and down the room.
Nellie looked askance at him.
She was in a state of extreme abnormal excitement.
I saw that, though she seemed to avoid looking at me.
“Well, what next?” asked the old man, sitting down in his easychair again.
Nellie looked round timidly.
“So you didn’t see your grandfather again?”
“Yes, I did...”
“Yes, yes!
Tell us, darling, tell us,” Anna Andreyevna put in hastily.
“I didn’t see him for three weeks,” said Nellie, “not till it was quite winter.
It was winter then and the snow had fallen.
When I met grandfather again at the same place I was awfully pleased . . . for mother was grieving that he didn’t come.
When I saw him I ran to the other side of the street on purpose that he might see I ran away from him.
Only I looked round and saw that grandfather was following me quickly, and then ran to overtake me, and began calling out to me,
‘Nellie, Nellie!’
And Azorka was running after me.
I felt sorry for him and I stopped.
Grandfather came up, took me by the hand and led me along, and when he saw I was crying, he stood still, looked at me, bent down and kissed me.
Then he saw that my shoes were old, and he asked me if I had no others.
I told him as quickly as I could that mother had no money, and that the people at our lodging only gave us something to eat out of pity.
Grandfather said nothing, but he took me to the market and bought me some shoes and told me to put them on at once, and then he took me home with him, and went first into a shop and bought a pie and two sweetmeats, and when we arrived he told me to eat the pie; and he looked at me while I ate it, and then gave me the sweetmeats.
And Azorka put his paws on the table and asked for some pie, too; I gave him some, and grandfather laughed.
Then he took me, made me stand beside him, began stroking my head, and asked me whether I had learnt anything and what I knew.
I answered him, and he told me whenever I could to come at three o’clock in the afternoon, and that he would teach me himself.
Then he told me to turn away and look out of the window till he told me to look round again.
I did as he said, but I peeped round on the sly, and I saw him unpick the bottom corner of his pillow and take out four roubles.
Then he brought them to me and said,
‘That’s only for you.’
I was going to take them, but then I changed my mind and said,
‘If it’s only for me I won’t take them.’
Grandfather was suddenly angry, and said to me,
‘Well do as you please, go away.’
I went away, and he didn’t kiss me.
“When I got home I told mother everything.
And mother kept getting worse and worse.
A medical student used to come and see the coffinmaker; he saw mother and told her to take medicine.
“I used to go and see grandfather often. Mother told me to.
Grandfather bought a New Testament and a geography book, and began to teach me; and sometimes he used to tell me what countries there are, and what sort of people live in them, and all the seas, and how it used to be in old times, and how Christ forgave us all.
When I asked him questions he was very much pleased, and so I often asked him questions, and he kept telling me things, and he talked a lot about God.
And. sometimes we didn’t have lessons, but played with Azorka. Azorka began to get fond of me and I taught him to jump over a stick, and grandfather used to laugh and pat me on the head.
Only grandfather did not often laugh.
One time he would talk a great deal, and then he would suddenly be quiet and seem to fall asleep, though his eyes were open.
And so he would sit till it was dark, and when it was dark he would become so dreadful, so old.... Another time I’d come and find him sitting in his chair thinking, and he’d hear nothing; and Azorka would be lying near him.
I would wait and wait and cough; and still grandfather wouldn’t look round.
And so I’d go away.
And at home mother would be waiting for me. She would he there, and I would tell her everything, everything, so that night would come on – while I’d still be telling her and she’d still be listening about grandfather; what he’d done that day, and what he’d said to me, the stories he had told and the lessons he’d given me.
And when I told her how I’d made Azorka jump over a stick and how grandfather had laughed, she suddenly laughed, too, and she would laugh and be glad for a long time and make me repeat it again and then begin to pray.
And I was always thinking that mother loved grandfather so much and grandfather didn’t love her at all, and when I went to grandfather’s I told him on purpose how much mother loved him and was always asking about him.