Got a feelin’ it’ll make a new fella outa me.
Go right to work in the fruit.”
Ma nodded.
“He means it, too,” she said. “Worked right up to three months ago, when he throwed his hip out the last time.”
“Damn right,” said Grampa.
Tom looked outward from his seat on the doorstep.
“Here comes that preacher, walkin’ aroun’ from the back side a the barn.”
Ma said,
“Curiousest grace I ever heerd, that he give this mornin’.
Wasn’t hardly no grace at all.
Jus’ talkin’, but the sound of it was like a grace.”
“He’s a funny fella,” said Tom. “Talks funny all the time.
Seems like he’s talkin’ to hisself, though.
He ain’t tryin’ to put nothin’ over.”
“Watch the look in his eye,” said Ma. “He looks baptized.
Got that look they call lookin’ through. He sure looks baptized.
An’ a-walkin’ with his head down, a-starin’ at nothin’ on the groun’.
There is a man that’s baptized.” And she was silent, for Casy had drawn near the door.
“You gonna get sun-shook, walkin’ around like that,” said Tom.
Casy said,
“Well, yeah—maybe.” He appealed to them all suddenly, to Ma and Grampa and Tom. “I got to get goin’ west.
I got to go.
I wonder if I kin go along with you folks.” And then he stood, embarrassed by his own speech.
Ma looked to Tom to speak, because he was a man, but Tom did not speak.
She let him have the chance that was his right, and then she said,
“Why, we’d be proud to have you. ’Course I can’t say right now; Pa says all the men’ll talk tonight and figger when we gonna start.
I guess maybe we better not say till all the men come.
John an’ Pa an’ Noah an’ Tom an’ Grampa an’ Al an’ Connie, they’re gonna figger soon’s they get back.
But if they’s room I’m pretty sure we’ll be proud to have ya.”
The preacher sighed.
“I’ll go anyways,” he said. “Somepin’s happening.
I went up an’ I looked, an’ the houses is all empty, an’ the lan’ is empty, an’ this whole country is empty.
I can’t stay here no more.
I got to go where the folks is goin’.I’ll work in the fiel’s, an’ maybe I’ll be happy.”
“An’ you ain’t gonna preach?” Tom asked.
“I ain’t gonna preach.”
“An’ you ain’t gonna baptize?” Ma asked.
“I ain’t gonna baptize.
I’m gonna work in the fiel’s, in the green fiel’s, an’ I’m gonna be near to folks.
I ain’t gonna try to teach ’em nothin’.
I’m gonna try to learn.
Gonna learn why the folks walks in the grass, gonna hear ’em talk, gonna hear ’em sing.
Gonna listen to kids eatin’ mush.
Gonna hear husban’ an’ wife a-poundin’ the mattress in the night.
Gonna eat with ’em an’ learn.” His eyes were wet and shining. “Gonna lay in the grass, open an’ honest with anybody that’ll have me.
Gonna cuss an’ swear an’ hear the poetry of folks talkin’.
All that’s holy, all that’s what I didn’ understan’. All them things is the good things.”
Ma said,
“A-men.”
The preacher sat humbly down on the chopping block beside the door.