"But you're wrong!" she cried, unable to restrain herself any longer.
"Look at me!
You know how my money came.
You know how things were before I made my money!
You remember that winter at Tara when it was so cold and we were cutting up the carpets for shoes and there wasn't enough to eat and we used to wonder how we were going to give Beau and Wade an education.
You remem--"
"I remember," said Ashley tiredly, "but I'd rather forget."
"Well, you can't say any of us were happy then, can you?
And look at us now!
You've a nice home and a good future.
And has anyone a prettier house than mine or nicer clothes or finer horses?
Nobody sets as fine a table as me or gives nicer receptions and my children have everything they want.
Well, how did I get the money to make it possible?
Off trees?
No, sir!
Convicts and saloon rentals and--"
"And don't forget murdering that Yankee," said Rhett softly.
"He really gave you your start."
Scarlett swung on him, furious words on her lips.
"And the money has made you very, very happy, hasn't it, darling?" he asked, poisonously sweet.
Scarlett stopped short, her mouth open, and her eyes went swiftly to the eyes of the other three.
Melanie was almost crying with embarrassment, Ashley was suddenly bleak and withdrawn and Rhett was watching her over his cigar with impersonal amusement.
She started to cry out:
"But of course, it's made me happy!"
But somehow, she could not speak.
CHAPTER LVIII
In the time that followed her illness Scarlett noticed a change in Rhett and she was not altogether certain that she liked it.
He was sober and quiet and preoccupied.
He was at home more often for supper now and he was kinder to the servants and more affectionate to Wade and Ella.
He never referred to anything in their past, pleasant or otherwise, and silently seemed to dare her to bring up such subjects.
Scarlett held her peace, for it was easier to let well enough alone, and life went on smoothly enough, on the surface.
His impersonal courtesy toward her that had begun during her convalescence continued and he did not fling softly drawled barbs at her or sting her with sarcasm.
She realized now that though he had infuriated her with his malicious comments and roused her to heated rejoinders, he had done it because he cared what she did and said.
Now she wondered if he cared about anything she did.
He was polite and disinterested and she missed his interest, perverse though it had been, missed the old days of bickering and retort.
He was pleasant to her now, almost as though she were a stranger; but, as his eyes had once followed her, they now followed Bonnie.
It was as though the swift flood of his life had been diverted into one narrow channel.
Sometimes Scarlett thought that if Rhett had given her one-half the attention and tenderness he lavished on Bonnie, life would have been different.
Sometimes it was hard to smile when people said:
"How Captain Butler idolizes that child!"
But, if she did not smile, people would think it strange and Scarlett hated to acknowledge, even to herself, that she was jealous of a little girl, especially when that little girl was her favorite child.
Scarlett always wanted to be first in the hearts of those around her and it was obvious now that Rhett and Bonnie would always be first with each other.
Rhett was out late many nights but he came home sober on these nights.
Often she heard him whistling softly to himself as he went down the hall past her closed door.
Sometimes men came home with him in the late hours and sat talking in the dining room around the brandy decanter.
They were not the same men with whom he had drunk the first year they were married.
No rich Carpetbaggers, no Scallawags, no Republicans came to the house now at his invitation.
Scarlett, creeping on tiptoe to the banister of the upstairs hall, listened and, to her amazement, frequently heard the voices of Rene Picard, Hugh Elsing, the Simmons boys and Andy Bonnell.
And always Grandpa Merriwether and Uncle Henry were there.
Once, to her astonishment, she heard the tones of Dr. Meade.