Daphne Dumorier Fullscreen French creek (1941)

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"It is easier then, for a man," she said, "a man is a creator, his happiness comes in the things that he achieves.

What he makes with his hands, with his brain, with his talents."

"Possibly," he said. "But women are not idle. Women have babies.

That is a greater achievement than the making of a drawing, or the planning of an action."

"Do you think so?"

"Of course."

"I never considered it before."

"You have children, have you not?"

"Yes - two."

"And when you handled them for the first time, were you not conscious of achievement?

Did you not say to yourself,

'This is something I have done - myself?

And was not that near to happiness?"

She thought a moment, and then smiled at him.

"Perhaps," she said.

He turned away from her, and began touching the things on the mantelpiece.

"You must not forget I am a pirate," he said; "here you are leaving your treasures about in careless fashion.

This little casket, for instance, is worth several hundred pounds."

"Ah, but then I trust you."

"That is unwise."

"I throw myself upon your mercy."

"I am known to be merciless."

He replaced the casket, and picked up the miniature of Harry.

He considered it a moment, whistling softly.

"Your husband?" he said.

"Yes."

He made no comment, but put the miniature back into its place, and the fashion in which he did so, saying nothing of Harry, of the likeness, of the miniature itself, gave to her a curious sense of embarrassment.

She felt instinctively that he thought little of Harry, considered him a dolt, and she wished suddenly that the miniature had not been there, or that Harry was in some way different.

"It was taken many years ago," she found herself saying, as though in defence; "before we were married."

"Oh, yes," he said.

There was a pause, and then -

"That portrait of you," he said, "upstairs in your room, was that done about the same time?"

"Yes," she said, "at least - it was done soon after I became betrothed to Harry."

"And you have been married - how long?"

"Six years.

Henrietta is five."

"And what decided you upon marriage?"

She stared back at him, at a loss for a moment; his question was so unexpected.

And then, because he spoke so quietly, with such composure, as though he were asking why she had chosen a certain dish for dinner, caring little about the answer, she told him the truth, not realising that she had never admitted it before.

"Harry was amusing," she said, "and I liked his eyes."

As she spoke it seemed to her that her voice sounded very far distant, as though it were not herself who spoke, but somebody else.

He did not answer. He had moved away from the mantelpiece, and had sat down on a chair, and was pulling out a piece of paper from the great pocket of his coat.

She went on staring in front of her, brooding suddenly upon Harry, upon the past, thinking of their marriage in London, the vast assembly of people, and how poor Harry, very youthful, scared possibly at the responsibilities before him, and having little imagination, drank too much on their wedding-night, so as to appear bolder than he was, and only succeeded in seeming a very great sot and a fool.

And they had journeyed about England, to meet his friends, for ever staying in other people's houses in an atmosphere strained and artificial, and she - starting Henrietta almost immediately - became irritable, fretful, entirely unlike herself, so unaccustomed to ill-health of any kind.

The impossibility of riding, of walking, of doing all the things she wished to do, increased her irritation.

It would have helped could she have talked to Harry, asked for his understanding, but understanding, to him, meant neither silence, nor tenderness, nor quiet, but a rather hearty boisterousness, a forced jollity, a making of noise in an endeavour to cheer her, and on top of it all great lavish caresses that helped her not at all.

She looked up suddenly, and saw that her guest was drawing her.

"Do you mind?" he said.

"No," she said, "of course not," wondering what sort of drawing he would make, and she watched his hands, skilful and quick, but she could not see the paper, for it rested against his knee. "How did William come to be your servant?" she asked.

"His mother was a Breton - you did not know that, I suppose?" he answered.