Then everybody made a move.
Holding a strip of black cloth, the four men approached the coffin, while the priest, the boys, and myself filed out.
A lady I hadn’t seen before was standing by the door.
“This is Monsieur Meursault,” the warden said to her.
I didn’t catch her name, but I gathered she was a nursing sister attached to the Home.
When I was introduced, she bowed, without the trace of a smile on her long, gaunt face.
We stood aside from the doorway to let the coffin by; then, following the bearers down a corridor, we came to the front entrance, where a hearse was waiting.
Oblong, glossy, varnished black all over, it vaguely reminded me of the pen trays in the office.
Beside the hearse stood a quaintly dressed little -man, whose duty it was, I understood, to supervise the funeral, as a sort of master of ceremonies.
Near him, looking constrained, almost bashful, was old M. Perez, my mother’s special friend.
He wore a soft felt hat with a pudding-basin crown and a very wide brim—he whisked it off the moment the coffin emerged from the doorway—trousers that concertina’d on his shoes, a black tie much too small for his high white double collar. Under a bulbous, pimply nose, his lips were trembling.
But what caught my attention most was his ears; pendulous, scarlet ears that showed up like blobs of sealing wax on the pallor of his cheeks and were framed in wisps of silky white hair.
The undertaker’s factotum shepherded us to our places, with the priest in front of the hearse, and the four men in black on each side of it. The warden and myself came next, and, bringing up the rear, old Perez and the nurse.
The sky was already a blaze of light, and the air stoking up rapidly.
I felt the first waves of heat lapping my back, and my dark suit made things worse. I couldn’t imagine why we waited so long for getting under way.
Old Perez, who had put on his hat, took it off again.
I had turned slightly in his direction and was looking at him when the warden started telling me more about him. I remember his saying that old Perez and my mother used often to have a longish stroll together in the cool of the evening; sometimes they went as far as the village, accompanied by a nurse, of course.
I looked at the countryside, at the long lines of cypresses sloping up toward the skyline and the hills, the hot red soil dappled with vivid green, and here and there a lonely house sharply outlined against the light—and I could understand Mother’s feelings.
Evenings in these parts must be a sort of mournful solace.
Now, in the full glare of the morning sun, with everything shimmering in the heat haze, there was something inhuman, discouraging, about this landscape.
At last we made a move.
Only then I noticed that Perez had a slight limp.
The old chap steadily lost ground as the hearse gained speed.
One of the men beside it, too, fell back and drew level with me.
I was surprised to see how quickly the sun was climbing up the sky, and just then it struck me that for quite a while the air had been throbbing with the hum of insects and the rustle of grass warming up.
Sweat was running down my face.
As I had no hat I tried to fan myself with my handkerchief.
The undertaker’s man turned to me and said something that I didn’t catch.
At that same time he wiped the crown of his head with a handkerchief that he held in his left hand, while with his right he tilted up his hat.
I asked him what he’d said.
He pointed upward.
“Sun’s pretty bad today, ain’t it?”
“Yes,” I said.
After a while he asked:
“Is it your mother we’re burying?”
“Yes,” I said again.
“What was her age?”
“Well, she was getting on.” As a matter of fact, I didn’t know exactly how old she was.
After that he kept silent.
Looking back, I saw Perez limping along some fifty yards behind.
He was swinging his big felt hat at arm’s length, trying to make the pace.
I also had a look at the warden.
He was walking with carefully measured steps, economizing every gesture.
Beads of perspiration glistened on his forehead, but he didn’t wipe them off.
I had an impression that our little procession was moving slightly faster.
Wherever I looked I saw the same sun-drenched countryside, and the sky was so dazzling that I dared not raise my eyes.
Presently we struck a patch of freshly tarred road.
A shimmer of heat played over it and one’s feet squelched at each step, leaving bright black gashes.
In front, the coachman’s glossy black hat looked like a lump of the same sticky substance, poised above the hearse.
It gave one a queer, dreamlike impression, that blue-white glare overhead and all this blackness round one: the sleek black of the hearse, the dull black of the men’s clothes, and the silvery-black gashes in the road.