"Very well, Madame."
Then I looked stealthily at poor Monsieur, who likes perfumes, or who at least likes my perfume.
With his elbows on the table, apparently indifferent, but really humiliated and distressed, he was following the flight of a wasp which had been lingering over a plate of fruit.
And there was now a dismal silence in this dining-room, which the twilight had just invaded, and something inexpressibly sad, something unspeakably heavy, fell from the ceiling on these two beings, concerning whom I really asked myself of what use they are and what they are doing on earth.
"The lamp, Celestine."
It was Madame's voice, sharper than ever in the silence and the shade.
It made me start.
"Do you not see that it is dark?
I should not have to ask you for the lamp.
Let it be the last time."
While lighting the lamp,—this lamp which can be repaired only in England,—I had a strong desire to cry out to poor Monsieur:
"Just wait a little, my old man, and fear nothing, and don't distress yourself.
You shall eat and drink the perfumes that you so love, and of which you are so deprived.
You shall breathe them, I promise you; you shall breathe them in my hair, on my lips, on my neck.
And the two of us will lead this blockhead a merry dance, I answer for it."
And, to emphasize this silent invocation, I took care, as I placed the lamp upon the table, to slightly brush against Monsieur's arm, and I went out. _____
The servants' hall is not gay.
Besides myself, there are only two domestics,—a cook, who is always scolding, and a gardener-coachman, who never says a word.
The cook's name is Marianne; that of the gardener-coachman, Joseph.
Stupid peasants.
And what heads they have!
She, fat, soft, flabby, sprawling, a neck emerging in a triple cushion from a dirty neckkerchief which looks as if she wiped her kettles with it, two enormous and shapeless breasts rolling beneath a sort of blue cotton camisole covered with grease, her too short dress disclosing thick ankles and big feet encased in grey woolen; he, in shirt-sleeves, work-apron, and wooden shoes, shaven, dry, nervous, with an evil grimace on his lips which stretch from ear to ear, and a devious gait, the sly movements of a sacristan.
Such are my two companions.
No dining-room for the servants.
We take our meals in the kitchen, at the same table where, during the day, the cook does her dirty work, carves her meats, cleans her fish, and cuts up her vegetables, with fingers fat and round as sausages.
Really, that is scarcely proper. The fire in the stove renders the atmosphere of the room stifling; odors of old grease, of rancid sauces, of continual fryings, circulate in the air.
While we eat, a kettle in which the dogs' soup is boiling exhales a fetid vapor that attacks your throat and makes you cough.
One almost vomits.
More respect is shown for prisoners in their cells and dogs in their kennels.
We had bacon and cabbage, and stinking cheese; for drink, sour cider.
Nothing else.
Earthen plates, with cracked enamel, and which smell of burnt grease, and tin forks, complete this pretty service.
Being too new in the house, I did not wish to complain.
But neither did I wish to eat.
Do further damage to my stomach, no, thank you!
"Why don't you eat?" asked the cook.
"I am not hungry."
I uttered this in a very dignified tone; then Marianne grunted:
"Perhaps Mademoiselle must have truffles?"
Without showing anger, but with a stiff and haughty air, I replied:
"Why, you know, I have eaten truffles. Not everybody here can say as much."
That shut her up.
Meantime the gardener-coachman was filling his mouth with big pieces of bacon and examining me stealthily.
I cannot say why, but this man has an embarrassing look, and his silence troubles me.
Although he is no longer young, I am astonished at the suppleness and elasticity of his movements; the undulations of his loins are reptilian.
Let me describe him in greater detail.
His stiff, grizzled hair, his low forehead, his oblique eyes, his prominent cheek-bones, his broad, strong jaw, and his long, fleshy, turned-up chin, give him a strange character that I cannot define.
Is he a simpleton? Is he a rascal?
I cannot tell.
Yet it is curious that this man holds my attention as he does.