"I regret it, but Madame's place does not please me. I do not go into houses like Madame's."
And I sailed out triumphantly.
One day a little woman, with hair outrageously dyed, with lips painted with minium, with enameled cheeks, as insolent as a guinea-hen, and perfumed like a bidet, after asking me thirty-six questions, put a thirty-seventh:
"Are you well behaved?
Do you receive lovers?"
"And Madame?" I answered very quietly, showing no astonishment.
Some, less difficult to please, or more weary or more timid, accepted infected places.
They were hooted. "Bon voyage!
We shall see you soon again."
At the sight of us thus piled up on our benches, with legs spread apart, dreamy, stupid, or chattering, and listening to the successive calls of the madame:
"Mademoiselle Victoire!...
Mademoiselle Irene!...
Mademoiselle Zulma!" it sometimes seemed to me as if we were in a public house, awaiting the next caller. That seemed to me funny or sad, I don't know which; and one day I remarked upon it aloud. There was a general outburst of laughter.
Each one immediately delivered herself of all the exact and marvelous information of which she was in possession concerning establishments of that character.
A fat and puffy creature, who was peeling an orange, said:
"Surely that would be better. They are sure of a living in those places.
And champagne, you know, young women; and chemises with silver stars; and no corsets!"
I remember that that day I thought of my sister Louise, undoubtedly shut up in one of those houses.
I pictured to myself her life, possibly happy, at least tranquil, in any case exempt from the danger of poverty and hunger.
And, more than ever disgusted with my dismal and beaten youth, with my wandering existence, with my dread of the morrow, I too dreamed:
"Yes, perhaps that would be better."
And evening came, and then night,—a night hardly darker than the day. We became silent, fatigued from having talked too much, from having waited too long. A gas jet was lighted in the hall, and regularly, at five o'clock, through the glass in the door, we could see the slightly-bent outline of M. Louis passing very quickly, and then vanishing. It was the signal for our departure.
Often old women, runners for public houses, pimps with a respectable air, and quite like the good sisters in their honeyed sweetness, awaited us at the exit on the sidewalk.
They followed us discreetly, and, in some darker corner of the street, behind the groups of trees in the Champs-Elysees, out of sight of the police, they approached us.
"Come, then, to my house, instead of dragging out your poor life from anxiety to anxiety, and from poverty to poverty.
In my house you will find pleasure, luxury, money; you will find liberty."
Dazzled by the marvelous promises, several of my little comrades listened to these love-brokers. With sadness I saw them start.
Where are they now?
One evening one of these prowlers, fat and flabby, whom I had already brutally dismissed, succeeded in getting me to go with her to a cafe in the Rond-Point, where she offered me a glass of chartreuse.
I see her still, with her hair turning grey, her severe costume of a bourgeoise widow, her plump and sticky hands, loaded with rings. She reeled off her story with more spirit and conviction than usual, and, as I remained indifferent to all her humbug inducements, she cried:
"Oh! if you only would, my little one.
I do not need to look at you twice to see how beautiful you are in all respects.
And it is a real crime to let such beauty go to waste, and be squandered in the company of house-servants.
With your beauty, you would quickly make a fortune.
Oh! you would have a bag of money in a very little time.
You see, I have a wonderful set of customers,—old gentlemen, very influential, and very, very generous.
All that is best in Paris comes to my house,—famous generals, powerful magistrates, foreign ambassadors."
She drew nearer to me, lowering her voice.
"And if I were to tell you that the president of the republic himself ... why, yes, my little one!
That gives you an idea of what my house is. There is not one like it in the world. Rabineau's is nothing side of my house. And stay! yesterday at five o'clock the president was so well pleased that he promised me the academic palms ... for my son, who is chief auditor in a religious educational institution at Auteuil."
She looked at me a long time, searching me body and soul, and repeated:
"Oh! if you would!
What a success!"
I offered a heap of objections, my lack of fine linen, of costumes, of jewels. The old woman reassured me.
"Oh! if that's all," said she, "you need not worry, because in my house, you understand, natural beauty is the chief adornment."
"Yes, yes, I know, but still...."
"I assure you that you need not worry," she insisted, with benevolence.
"Listen, sign a contract with me for three months, and I will give you an outfit of the best, such as no soubrette of the Theatre-Francais ever had. My word for it!"
I asked time to reflect.
"Well, all right! reflect," counseled this dealer in human flesh.