But Bathsheba found that she could not wait.
It was impossible to send this letter till the next day; yet to quell her uneasiness by getting it out of her hands, and so, as it were, setting the act in motion at once, she arose to take it to any one of the women who might be in the kitchen.
She paused in the passage.
A dialogue was going on in the kitchen, and Bathsheba and Troy were the subject of it.
"If he marry her, she'll gie up farming."
"Twill be a gallant life, but may bring some trouble between the mirth — so say I."
"Well, I wish I had half such a husband."
Bathsheba had too much sense to mind seriously what her servitors said about her; but too much womanly redundance of speech to leave alone what was said till it died the natural death of unminded things.
She burst in upon them.
"Who are you speaking of?" she asked.
There was a pause before anybody replied.
At last Liddy said frankly," What was passing was a bit of a word about yourself, miss."
"I thought so!
Maryann and Liddy and Temper- ance — now I forbid you to suppose such things.
You know I don't care the least for Mr. Troy — not I.
Everybody knows how much I hate him.
— Yes." repeated the froward young person, "HATE him!"
"We know you do, miss." said Liddy; "and so do we all."
"I hate him too." said Maryann.
"Maryann — O you perjured woman!
How can you speak that wicked story!" said Bathsheba, excitedly.
"You admired him from your heart only this morning in the very world, you did.
Yes, Maryann, you know it!"
"Yes, miss, but so did you.
He is a wild scamp now, and you are right to hate him."
"He's NOT a wild scamp!
How dare you to my face!
I have no right to hate him, nor you, nor anybody.
But I am a silly woman!
What is it to me what he is?
You know it is nothing.
I don't care for him; I don"t mean to defend his good name, not I.
Mind this, if any of you say a word against him you'll be dismissed instantly!"
She flung down the letter and surged back into the parlour, with a big heart and tearful eyes, Liddy following her.
"O miss!" said mild Liddy, looking pitifully into Bathsheba's face. "I am sorry we mistook you so! did think you cared for him; but I see you don't now."
"Shut the door, Liddy."
Liddy closed the door, and went on: " People always say such foolery, miss.
I'll make answer hencefor'ard,
"Of course a lady like Miss Everdene can't love him;" I'll say it out in plain black and white."
Bathsheba burst out:
"O Liddy, are you such a simpleton?
Can't you read riddles?
Can't you see?
Are you a woman yourself?"
Liddy's clear eyes rounded with wonderment.
"Yes; you must be a blind thing, Liddy!" she said, in reckless abandonment and grief.
"O, I love him to very distraction and misery and agony!
Don't be frightened at me, though perhaps I am enough to frighten any innocent woman.
Come closer — closer."
She put her arms round Liddy's neck.