It was very cruel of you, consider- ing I was the first sweetheart that you ever had, and you were the first I ever had; and I shall not forget it!"
"Now, Bathsheba, was ever anybody so provoking he said, laughing.
"You know it was purely that I, as an unmarried man, carrying on a business for you as a very taking young woman, had a proper hard part to play — more particular that people knew I had a sort of feeling for'ee; and I fancied, from the way we were mentioned together, that it might injure your good name.
Nobody knows the heat and fret I have been caused by it."
"And was that all?"
"All."
"Oh, how glad I am I came!" she exclaimed, thankfully, as she rose from her seat.
"I have thought so much more of you since I fancied you did not want even to see me again.
But I must be going now, or I shall be missed.
Why Gabriel." she said, with a slight laugh, as they went to the door, "it seems exactly as if I had come courting you — how dreadful!"
"And quite right too." said Oak.
"I've danced at your skittish heels, my beautiful Bathsheba, for many a long mile, and many a long day; and it is hard to be grudge me this one visit."
He accompanied her up the hill, explaining to her the details of his forthcoming tenure of the other farm.
They spoke very little of their mutual feeling; pretty phrases and warm expressions being probably unnecessary between such tried friends.
Theirs was that substantial affection which arises (if any arises at all) when the two who are thrown together begin first by knowing the rougher sides of each other's character, and not the best till further on, the romance growing up in the interstices of a mass of hard prosaic reality.
This good-fellowship — CAMARADERIE — usually occurring through similarity of pursuits, is unfortunately seldom superadded to love between the sexes, because men and women associate, not in their labours, but in their pleasures merely.
Where, however, happy circumstance permits its development, the compounded feeling proves itself to be the only love which is strong as death — that love which many waters cannot quench, nor the floods drown, beside which the passion usually called by the name is evanescent as steam.
CHAPTER LVII
A FOGGY NIGHT AND MORNING — CONCLUSION
"THE most private, secret, plainest wedding that it is possible to have."
Those had been Bathsheba's words to Oak one evening, some time after the event of the preceding chapter, and he meditated a full hour by the clock upon how to carry out her wishes to the letter.
"A licence — O yes, it must be a licence." he said to himself at last.
"Very well, then; first, a license."
On a dark night, a few days later, Oak came with mysterious steps from the surrogate's door, in Casterbridge.
On the way home he heard a heavy tread in front of him, and, overtaking the man, found him to be Coggan.
They walked together into the village until they came to a little lane behind the church, leading down to the cottage of Laban Tall, who had lately been installed as clerk of the parish, and was yet in mortal terror at church on Sundays when he heard his lone voice among certain hard words of the Psalms, whither no man ventured to follow him.
"Well, good night, Coggan." said Oak,
"I'm going down this way."
"Oh!" said Coggan, surprised; "what's going on tonight then, make so bold Mr. Oak?"
It seemed rather ungenerous not to tell Coggan, under the circumstances, for Coggan had been true as steel all through the time of Gabriel's unhappiness about Bathsheba, and Gabriel said, " You can keep a secret, Coggan?"
"You've proved me, and you know."
"Yes, I have, and I do know.
Well, then, mistress and I mean to get married to-morrow morning."
"Heaven's high tower!
And yet I've thought of such a thing from time to time; true, I have.
But keeping it so close!
Well, there, 'tis no consarn of amine, and I wish 'ee joy o' her."
"Thank you, Coggan.
But I assure 'ee that this great hush is not what I wished for at all, or what either of us would have wished if it hadn't been for certain things that would make a gay wedding seem hardly the thing.
Bathsheba has a great wish that all the parish shall not be in church, looking at her — she's shylike and nervous about it, in fact — so I be doing this to humour her."
"Ay, I see: quite right, too, I suppose I must say.
And you be now going down to the clerk."
"Yes; you may as well come with me."
"I am afeard your labour in keeping it close will be throwed away." said Coggan, as they walked along.
"Labe Tall's old woman will horn it all over parish in half-an-hour. "
"So she will, upon my life; I never thought of that." said Oak, pausing.
"Yet I must tell him tonight, I suppose, for he's working so far off, and leaves early."
"I'll tell 'ee how we could tackle her." said Coggan.
"I'll knock and ask to speak to Laban outside the door, you standing in the background.
Then he'll come out, and you can tell yer tale.