By MURRAY LEINSTER
It was self-evident nonsense. If Jimmy Patterson had told anybody but Haynes, calm men in white jackets would have taken him away for psychiatric treatment which undoubtedly would have been effective.
He'd have been restored to sanity and common sense, and he'd probably have died of it.
So to anyone who liked Jimmy and Jane, it is good that things worked out as they did.
The facts are patently impossible, but they are satisfying.
Haynes, though, would like very much to know exactly why it happened in the case of Jimmy and Jane and nobody else.
There must have been some specific reason, but there's absolutely no clue to it.
It began about three months after Jane was killed in that freak accident.
Jimmy had taken her death hard.
This night seemed no different from any other.
He came home just as usual and his throat tightened a little, just as usual, as he went up to the door.
It was still intolerable to know that Jane wouldn't be waiting for him.
The hurt in his throat was a familiar sensation which he was doggedly hoping would go away.
But it was extra strong tonight and he wondered rather desperately if he'd sleep, or, if he did, whether he would dream.
Sometimes he had dreams of Jane and was happy until he woke up, and then he wanted to cut his throat.
But he wasn't at that point tonight.
Not yet.
As he explained it to Haynes later, he simply put his key in the door and opened it and started to walk in. But he kicked the door instead, so he absently put his key in the door and opened it and started to walk in—
Yes, that is what happened.
He was half-way through before he realized. He stared blankly. The door looked perfectly normal.
He closed it behind him, feeling queer.
He tried to reason out what had happened.
Then he felt a slight draught.
The door wasn't shut. It was wide open. He had to close it again.
That was all that happened to mark this night off from any other, and there is no explanation why it happened—began, rather—this night instead of another.
Jimmy went to bed with a taut feeling.
He'd had the conviction that he opened the door twice. The same door. Then he'd had the conviction that he had had to close it twice.
He'd heard of that feeling. Queer, but no doubt commonplace.
He slept, blessedly without dreams.
He woke next morning and found his muscles tense. That was an acquired habit.
Before he opened his eyes, every morning, he reminded himself that Jane wasn't beside him.
It was necessary.
If he forgot and turned contentedly—to emptiness—the ache of being alive, when Jane wasn't, was unbearable.
This morning he lay with his eyes closed to remind himself, and instead found himself thinking about that business of the door.
He'd kicked the door between the two openings, so it wasn't only an illusion of repetition.
He was puzzling over that repetition after closing the door, when he found he had to close it again.
That proved to him it wasn't a standard mental vagary.
It looked like a delusion. But his memory insisted that it had happened that way, whether it was possible or not.
Frowning, he went out and got his breakfast at a restaurant and rode to work.
Work was blessed, because he had to think about it.
The main trouble was that sometimes something turned up which Jane would have been amused to hear, and he had to remind himself that there was no use making a mental note to tell her. Jane was dead.
Today he thought a good deal about the door, but when he went home he knew that he was going to have a black night.
He wouldn't sleep, and oblivion would seem infinitely tempting, because the ache of being alive, when Jane wasn't, was horribly tedious and he could not imagine an end to it.
Tonight would be a very bad one, indeed.
He opened the door and started in. He went crashing into the door.
He stood still for an instant, and then fumbled for the lock.
But the door was open.
He'd opened it.
There hadn't been anything for him to run into.
Yet his forehead hurt where he'd bumped into the door which wasn't closed at all.