To whom was he to turn if not to Him in whose hands he felt himself, his soul, and his love?
The horse was not yet ready, but feeling a peculiar concentration of his physical forces and his intellect on what he had to do, he started off on foot without waiting for the horse, and told Kouzma to overtake him.
At the corner he met a night cabman driving hurriedly.
In the little sledge, wrapped in a velvet cloak, sat Lizaveta Petrovna with a kerchief round her head.
"Thank God! thank God!" he said, overjoyed to recognize her little fair face which wore a peculiarly serious, even stern expression.
Telling the driver not to stop, he ran along beside her.
"For two hours, then?
Not more?" she inquired. "You should let Pyotr Dmitrievitch know, but don't hurry him.
And get some opium at the chemist's."
"So you think that it may go on well?
Lord have mercy on us and help us!" Levin said, seeing his own horse driving out of the gate.
Jumping into the sledge beside Kouzma, he told him to drive to the doctor's.
Chapter 14
The doctor was not yet up, and the footman said that "he had been up late, and had given orders not to be waked, but would get up soon."
The footman was cleaning the lamp-chimneys, and seemed very busy about them.
This concentration of the footman upon his lamps, and his indifference to what was passing in Levin, at first astounded him, but immediately on considering the question he realized that no one knew or was bound to know his feelings, and that it was all the more necessary to act calmly, sensibly, and resolutely to get through this wall of indifference and attain his aim.
"Don't be in a hurry or let anything slip," Levin said to himself, feeling a greater and greater flow of physical energy and attention to all that lay before him to do.
Having ascertained that the doctor was not getting up, Levin considered various plans, and decided on the following one: that Kouzma should go for another doctor, while he himself should go to the chemist's for opium, and if when he came back the doctor had not yet begun to get up, he would either by tipping the footman, or by force, wake the doctor at all hazards.
At the chemist's the lank shopman sealed up a packet of powders for a coachman who stood waiting, and refused him opium with the same callousness with which the doctor's footman had cleaned his lamp chimneys.
Trying not to get flurried or out of temper, Levin mentioned the names of the doctor and midwife, and explaining what the opium was needed for, tried to persuade him.
The assistant inquired in German whether he should give it, and receiving an affirmative reply from behind the partition, he took out a bottle and a funnel, deliberately poured the opium from a bigger bottle into a little one, stuck on a label, sealed it up, in spite of Levin's request that he would not do so, and was about to wrap it up too.
This was more than Levin could stand; he took the bottle firmly out of his hands, and ran to the big glass doors.
The doctor was not even now getting up, and the footman, busy now in putting down the rugs, refused to wake him.
Levin deliberately took out a ten rouble note, and, careful to speak slowly, though losing no time over the business, he handed him the note, and explained that Pyotr Dmitrievitch (what a great and important personage he seemed to Levin now, this Pyotr Dmitrievitch, who had been of so little consequence in his eyes before!) had promised to come at any time; that he would certainly not be angry! and that he must therefore wake him at once.
The footman agreed, and went upstairs, taking Levin into the waiting room.
Levin could hear through the door the doctor coughing, moving about, washing, and saying something.
Three minutes passed; it seemed to Levin that more than an hour had gone by.
He could not wait any longer.
"Pyotr Dmitrievitch, Pyotr Dmitrievitch!" he said in an imploring voice at the open door. "For God's sake, forgive me!
See me as you are.
It's been going on more than two hours already."
"In a minute; in a minute!" answered a voice, and to his amazement Levin heard that the doctor was smiling as he spoke.
"For one instant."
"In a minute."
Two minutes more passed while the doctor was putting on his boots, and two minutes more while the doctor put on his coat and combed his hair.
"Pyotr Dmitrievitch!" Levin was beginning again in a plaintive voice, just as the doctor came in dressed and ready.
"These people have no conscience," thought Levin. "Combing his hair, while we're dying!"
"Good morning!" the doctor said to him, shaking hands, and, as it were, teasing him with his composure. "There's no hurry.
Well now?"
Trying to be as accurate as possible, Levin began to tell him every unnecessary detail of his wife's condition, interrupting his account repeatedly with entreaties that the doctor would come with him at once.
"Oh, you needn't be in any hurry.
You don't understand, you know.
I'm certain I'm not wanted, still I've promised, and if you like, I'll come.
But there's no hurry.
Please sit down; won't you have some coffee?"
Levin stared at him with eyes that asked whether he was laughing at him; but the doctor had no notion of making fun of him.
"I know, I know," the doctor said, smiling;
"I'm a married man myself; and at these moments we husbands are very much to be pitied.
I've a patient whose husband always takes refuge in the stables on such occasions."
"But what do you think, Pyotr Dmitrievitch?