“You see, well,” she began, earnestly and nervously, her whole manner suddenly betraying the terrific strain under which she was laboring.
“I came . . . I came . . . that is . . . I don’t know whether I can tell you about myself or not.
I thought I could just before I came in, but now that I am here and I see you . . .”
She paused and moved back in her chair as though to rise, at the same time that she added: “Oh, dear, how very dreadful it all is.
I’m so nervous and . . .”
“Well, now, my dear,” he resumed, pleasantly and reassuringly, impressed by her attractive and yet sober appearance and wondering for the moment what could have upset so clean, modest and sedate- looking a girl, and hence not a little amused by her “now that I see you,”—“Just what is there about me ‘now that you see me,’” he repeated after her, “that so frightens you?
I am only a country doctor, you know, and I hope I’m not as dreadful as you seem to think.
You can be sure that you can tell me anything you wish — anything at all about yourself — and you needn’t be afraid.
If there’s anything I can do for you, I’ll do it.”
He was decidedly pleasant, as she now thought, and yet so sober and reserved and probably conventional withal that what she was holding in mind to tell him would probably shock him not a little — and then what?
Would he do anything for her?
And if he would, how was she to arrange about money, for that certainly would be a point in connection with all this?
If only Clyde or some one were here to speak for her.
And yet she must speak now that she was here.
She could not leave without.
Once more she moved and twisted, seizing nervously on a large button of her coat to turn between her thumb and forefinger, and then went on chokingly.
“But this is . . . this is . . . well, something different, you know, maybe not what you think. . . . I . . . I . . . well . . .”
Again she paused, unable to proceed, shading from white to red and back as she spoke.
And because of the troubled modesty of her approach, as well as a certain clarity of eye, whiteness of forehead, sobriety of manner and dress, the doctor could scarcely bring himself to think for a moment that this was anything other than one of those morbid exhibitions of innocence, or rather inexperience, in connection with everything relating to the human body — so characteristic of the young and unsophisticated in some instances.
And so he was about to repeat his customary formula in such cases that all could be told to him without fear or hesitation, whatever it might be, when a secondary thought, based on Roberta’s charm and vigor, as well as her own thought waves attacking his cerebral receptive centers, caused him to decide that he might be wrong.
After all, why might not this be another of those troublesome youthful cases in which possibly immorality and illegitimacy was involved.
She was so young, healthy and attractive, besides, they were always cropping up, these cases — in connection with the most respectable-looking girls at times.
And invariably they spelled trouble and distress for doctors.
And, for various reasons connected with his own temperament, which was retiring and recessive, as well as the nature of this local social world, he disliked and hesitated to even trifle with them.
They were illegal, dangerous, involved little or no pay as a rule, and the sentiment of this local world was all against them as he knew.
Besides he personally was more or less irritated by these young scamps of boys and girls who were so free to exercise the normal functions of their natures in the first instance, but so ready to refuse the social obligations which went with them — marriage afterwards.
And so, although in several cases in the past ten years where family and other neighborhood and religious considerations had made it seem quite advisable, he had assisted in extricating from the consequences of their folly several young girls of good family who had fallen from grace and could not otherwise be rescued, still he was opposed to aiding, either by his own countenance or skill, any lapses or tangles not heavily sponsored by others.
It was too dangerous.
Ordinarily it was his custom to advise immediate and unconditional marriage.
Or, where that was not possible, the perpetrator of the infamy having decamped, it was his general and self-consciously sanctioned practice to have nothing at all to do with the matter.
It was too dangerous and ethically and socially wrong and criminal into the bargain.
In consequence he now looked at Roberta in an extremely sober manner.
By no means, he now said to himself, must he allow himself to become emotionally or otherwise involved here.
And so in order to help himself as well as her to attain and maintain a balance which would permit of both extricating themselves without too much trouble, he drew toward him his black leather case record book and, opening it, said:
“Now, let’s see if we can’t find out what the trouble is here.
What is your name?”
“Ruth Howard. Mrs. Howard,” replied Roberta nervously and tensely, at once fixing upon a name which Clyde had suggested for her use.
And now, interestingly enough, at mention of the fact that she was married, he breathed easier.
But why the tears then?
What reason could a young married woman have for being so intensely shy and nervous?
“And your husband’s first name?” he went on.
As simple as the question was, and as easy as it should have been to answer, Roberta nevertheless hesitated before she could bring herself to say:
“Gifford,” her older brother’s name.
“You live around her, I presume?”
“In Fonda.”
“Yes.
And how old are you?”
“Twenty-two.”
“How long have you been married?”
This inquiry being so intimately connected with the problem before her, she again hesitated before saying,