He leaned towards her.
"My very dear friend," he said in a different voice, getting bolder.
It was infinitely sweet to her, voluptuously sweet, this basking in the heat of temptation.
It certainly did seem to her, then, the one real pleasure in the world.
Her body might have been saying to his:
"See how ready I am!"
Her body might have been saying to his:
"Look into my mind.
For you I have no modesty.
Look and see all that is there."
The veil of convention seemed to have been rent.
Their attitude to each other was almost that of lover and mistress, between whom a single glance may be charged with the secrets of the past and promises for the future.
Morally she was his mistress in that moment.
He released her hand and put his arm round her waist.
"I love thee," he whispered with great emotion.
Her face changed and hardened.
"You must not do that," she said, coldly, unkindly, harshly.
She scowled.
She would not abate one crease in her forehead to the appeal of his surprised glance.
Yet she did not want to repulse him.
The instinct which repulsed him was not within her control.
Just as a shy man will obstinately refuse an invitation which he is hungering to accept, so, though not from shyness, she was compelled to repulse Chirac.
Perhaps if her desires had not been laid to sleep by excessive physical industry and nervous strain, the sequel might have been different.
Chirac, like most men who have once found a woman weak, imagined that he understood women profoundly.
He thought of women as the Occidental thinks of the Chinese, as a race apart, mysterious but capable of being infallibly comprehended by the application of a few leading principles of psychology.
Moreover he was in earnest; he was hard driven, and he was honest.
He continued, respectfully obedient in withdrawing his arm:
"Very dear friend," he urged with undaunted confidence, "you must know that I love you."
She shook her head impatiently, all the time wondering what it was that prevented her from slipping into his arms.
She knew that she was treating him badly by this brusque change of front; but she could not help it.
Then she began to feel sorry for him.
"We have been very good friends," he said.
"I have always admired you enormously.
I did not think that I should dare to love you until that day when I overheard that old villain Niepce make his advances.
Then, when I perceived my acute jealousy, I knew that I was loving you.
Ever since, I have thought only of you.
I swear to you that if you will not belong to me, it is already finished for me!
Altogether!
Never have I seen a woman like you!
So strong, so proud, so kind, and so beautiful!
You are astonishing, yes, astonishing!
No other woman could have drawn herself out of an impossible situation as you have done, since the disappearance of your husband.
For me, you are a woman unique.
I am very sincere.
Besides, you know it ... Dear friend!"
She shook her head passionately.
She did not love him.
But she was moved.
And she wanted to love him.
She wanted to yield to him, only liking him, and to love afterwards.