She had money to get home; she had nothing to do but use the tongue in her head.
The rest was her affair.
He would go to Paris alone, and find another amusement.
It was absurd to have supposed that Sophia would ever have suited him.
Not in such a family as the Baineses could one reasonably expect to discover an ideal mistress.
No! there had been a mistake.
The whole business was wrong.
She had nearly made a fool of him.
But he was not the man to be made a fool of.
He had kept his dignity intact.
So he said to himself.
Yet all the time his dignity, and his pride also, were bleeding, dropping invisible blood along the length of the Strand pavements.
He was at Salisbury Street again.
He pictured her in the bedroom.
Damn her!
He wanted her.
He wanted her with an excessive desire.
He hated to think that he had been baulked.
He hated to think that she would remain immaculate.
And he continued to picture her in the exciting privacy of that cursed bedroom.
Now he was walking down Salisbury Street.
He did not wish to be walking down Salisbury Street; but there he was!
"Oh, hell!" he murmured.
"I suppose I must go through with it."
He felt desperate.
He was ready to pay any price in order to be able to say to himself that he had accomplished what he had set his heart on.
"My wife hasn't gone out, has she?" he asked of the hall-porter.
"I'm not sure, sir; I think not," said the hall-porter.
The fear that Sophia had already departed made him sick.
When he noticed her trunk still there, he took hope and ran upstairs.
He saw her, a dark crumpled, sinuous piece of humanity, half on and half off the bed, silhouetted against the bluish-white counterpane; her hat was on the floor, with the spotted veil trailing away from it.
This sight seemed to him to be the most touching that he had ever seen, though her face was hidden.
He forgot everything except the deep and strange emotion which affected him.
He approached the bed.
She did not stir.
Having heard the entry and knowing that it must be Gerald who had entered, Sophia forced herself to remain still.
A wild, splendid hope shot up in her.
Constrained by all the power of her will not to move, she could not stifle a sob that had lain in ambush in her throat.
The sound of the sob fetched tears to the eyes of Gerald.
"Sophia!" he appealed to her.
But she did not stir.
Another sob shook her.
"Very well, then," said Gerald. "We'll stay in London till we can be married.
I'll arrange it.
I'll find a nice boarding-house for you, and I'll tell the people you're my cousin.
I shall stay on at this hotel, and I'll come and see you every day."
A silence.
"Thank you!" she blubbered.
"Thank you!"
He saw that her little gloved hand was stretching out towards him, like a feeler; and he seized it, and knelt down and took her clumsily by the waist.